New Beginnings

Part 19

POV - Lou brought y/n her outfit for the night out and convinced her to go. She spent most of the night trying to get drunk and ignore the day but when she didn't see Rose she lost it. Lou had struggles relating to Debbie which resulted in her joining you until you end up being intimate in a back room together.

TW - Suicide attempt, SH, Panic attacks

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As you lay your head on Lou you start to hear a heavy breath above you and immediately sit up knowing what's happening.

Y/n - "Hey? Hey woah Lou can you hear me? Lou please don't turn away what's wrong?"

Lou - "I- I just- I can't be here right now."

She moves you off her to get up and sorts out her clothes, before you yourself get onto your feet cautiously to fix yours too. She seems really rushed and frustrated and you get worried.

Y/n - "Lou what are you thinking right now I'm worried-"

Lou - "WORRIED! You should be worried y/n why the fuck did you let me do that?! I just-"

Y/N - "What? You said not to move I-"

Lou - "You said you wanted it-"

Y/n - "I did! I don't get what this is abou-"

Lou - "IM ENGAGED!! That's what this is about and I've just made this situation 1000 times worse! Ahh fuck!"

Y/n - "Lou! Lou no stop we can just-"

Lou - "Y/n if you don't get off me i swear to god! This was a stupid mistake and Rose and Debbie don't deserve this no matter what!"

That one mention of Rose alone hits you so hard and as she opens the door you immediately go after her. You try your best to catch up but it's no use and before you can turn another corner you feel an arm grab you.

Tammy - "Hey! There you are, what happened?! I've never seen Lou look like that before she said to ask you?I don't-"

As she speaks you've continued to walk with her until you reach outside the building. You look around desperate but Lou is nowhere to be seen and Tammy butts into your distress.

Tammy - "Y/n?... Oh umm the others already went home. We were looking for you both for ages and they got tired. I mean I don't even know what happened with Rose, she was just-"

You start to hyperventilate and just dart towards Lous place. Tammy runs after you trying to get you to slow down but you won't. She tries her best to stay at your pace until she finally comes close as you've stopped, heaving for breaths and loosing your ability to physically walk anymore. Your legs start to wobble and collapse but luckily Tam catches you and helps you the rest of the way in silence until you're eventually inside. You're mumbling words through your breaths but it's no use.

Tammy - "Y/n! Y/n please just focus on your breathing right now. Please sit here we can talk about it once you've-"

By this point you've got a hang of it quite quickly and you speak out, feeling your throat strain.

Tammy - "No! You won't understand! It's not that simple. I-"

Tammy tries to talk but is immediately dismissed by you.

You look around and run into the bathroom downstairs and lock it, scrambling to where you hide them and making your way into the corner on the floor.

After what felt like hours for Tammy outside trying to get you to open up, having short basic conversations with you checking you're okay, she just sits there defeated before noticing you're significantly quieter.

Tammy POV

I've been sat outside wondering what could have happened between Lou and Y/n to make them like that. I mean I kind of understand Lou's because Debs told me but I don't understand what's gone on with these two and I can't help but think the worse what with my initial assumption of the two together. Not to mention how protective I know Lou is over Debbie, I hate to think I made things worse but what could I do! I needed my friend and she needed me.

After a while I started to notice it had gone really quiet and I was no longer able to hear anything at all. I call out for her to start another conversation but there's no use. I quickly knock on the door slowly rising to my feet. I figured she was just sat numb is silence or curled up asleep so i knocked harder to get her attention. But there was still no answer. No matter how hard I hit that wall and called out for her to open, I was just met with silence.

With all of the shouting, some of the girls had emerged from where they were hidden, rubbing their eyes and wobbling over complaining. At this moment I was getting really worried and i called for Constance to help unlock it. She was trying her best and Nine was trying to find tips online, until finally there was a click and we looked at each other realising it was now open.

Debbie, Lou, Rose and Daphne are still nowhere to be seen and Amita is beside me trying to calm me down. Telling me not shout encase Y/n was asleep. We open the door slowly after a count of 3 and as soon as the door swings open, that's when I saw it.

Dropping to the floor and screaming as my throat strained, I didn't realise the impact of my scream. Grabbing the attention of the others in a heartbeat as Debbie comes racing down to see what was happening. You hear Amita faintly in the background trying to get Constance and Nine to stay away, until Debbie stops in her tracks and realises the situation, telling them to go and get Lou.

They get Lou but Rose comes out of her room too unsure of what's happened. Racing behind her despite them telling her not to, she pushes past to see y/n unconscious in Tammy's arms, the floor holding puddles of blood. She tries to lift you and Debbie helps get you up. They cover you in towels and continue to speak to you while Rose and now Lou, who just watched them lift you out, both stand there paralysed in shock. Debbie shakes Lou back to reality, waving and telling her she needs to call an ambulance. She tries to but is in so much shock she can barely speak. The others rush to help her and they finally get through and are able to get help.

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Hehe sorry this part is a bit short the next part is up now too :)