It's a hard realization to realize that you were only thinking about yourself.
But not to be selfish. But to protect yourself.
Your mind is smart, remembers trauma.
It can make you act recklessly in a attempt to protect itself.
It can be hard to realize you could hurt the ones you love; especially when you feel such a deep sympathy, love, care for them. But you can still unknowingly be selfish and hurt others.
The only thing you can do now is reflect, grow and heal.
Others should not have to pay for you being unwell.
- a note to herself
