Barrister Babu OS

Kaun Tujhe

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I FINALLY UPDATED !!!!

POUR IN THE COMMENTS.

Bondita was pacing back and forth in her room for a while now. She knew her Pati Babu loved children, he was nearing thirty with a child bride and no children. She had seen the longing in his eyes whenever he saw sweet little children.

All he had ever wanted was a normal family, not that he was regretting marrying Bondita. She was his jeene ki wajah.

She had always loved children too very dearly but the recent happenings had scared her from motherhood. Scarred her until she understood what it was and how beautiful it was.

Even though he doesn't show it, he is also very vulnerable regarding their baby.

Right now, he was outside cradling his sweet little sister. Sister was the name of the relationship but he surely loved her like a father. Earlier today he had walked up to her when she was carrying Sashwati as Sampoorna took bath.

Seeing her Sampoorna Di struggle between the baby and the household and still have no time for herself. She wondered if she could do it? only she would have to struggle between the chores, the baby, and school. It was not like Anirudh wouldn't support her but there are certain things that the mother has to do inevitably.

She would have had no time for herself anymore.

Seeing him cajole his crying sister, her mind returned to how she was treated in the school. How she was accused of her character by her professor. He almost didn't want her to sit in her exams just because she had gotten pregnant.

What was her fault? They both had been drugged, that night and didn't see anybody's consent.

She remembered the wide smile her Kaka Sasurji gave her as they had returned from the doctor knowing he was going to get his heir. In the happiness of his heir, he forgot his bahu. All he cared about was that she ate enough for the baby. She was comfortable enough for the baby. He didn't care if that comfort was hurting her or that one glass of milk made her vomit everything out.

Her pati babu to was shattered at the news of her pregnancy. More was he scared for Bondita, he was concerned if she was ready for the changes her body will be going through.

He had dreamed for children but not like this not at the cost of his Bondita. The pain she was going to go through while birthing the child.

As they had accepted the baby that was going to change the dynamics of their relationship. It was taken away from them.

They forced their baby upon them and when they accepted it they didn't let them be happy with it.

During the miscarriage, he didn't express what he was feeling as he dealt with the loss of their baby. He slept holding her that night as she had exhausted herself knowing her baby was dead.

He shed silent tears with his heart screaming.

The birth of Sashwati had brought him a newfound positivity as he started smiling a little more and spending time with her which he did barely before.

All she was now also was seventeen as she now understood their relation a little better, the expectations of society, the feeling of love, and his wishes. She loved him. She had always loved him.

She stepped out of her room as Anirudh pacing with a sleeping Sashwati greeted her. Her head rested on his shoulder as leaned his head towards her. His eyes closed and a serene smile on his face.

She wished he could do the same with his child. If he did want one with her.