their life and I'm in it

Chapter 1 (or whatever)

As I went out to get a drink with my best friend, i thought i wouldn't see her ever again, but she just smoked without telling me. She went outside and Raya gave her a cigarette. I was so worried I thought I would have to call the police but then she just came back inside and said „hey, wanna dance ?" and I was so glad at this moment I forgot to be angry. We went to the dancefloor and girl she got some moves that would even made me hard, well I'm not a guy but I think you know what I mean.

I knew that Boys don't ask for my number when Maddy is with me, she is so much prettier then I'm, I Iooked like a baby donkey, so yeah I were kinda sure no one even glimpsed at me. But oh hell there he is, the most interesting and mysterious guy i have ever met, Fezco or short Fez. You guys may ask, what's with him? Well I can't tell you that, its just Fez. He is handsome, chill and nobody knows anything about him, I think that's what makes him so hot. There are only rumors like „he's so quiet because  he's a member in the mafia" or „he's is so still because his parents died" , nobody really knows anything. The only thing that is known, is that he has a brother, adopted or biological is unknown , but he is everything to him and if somebody hurts Nash, hell is breaking out. Then the chill boy, that never talks back, will become an angry monster. Not that I have ever seen that side, even though we see each other everyday at school. But the people are talking, talking very much actually. However you guys now know very much bout Fez, you don't know anything about me, do you? Ok, well hello I'm Lucia but please just call me Luce, shit what should I tell you. I'm going to Ashton Highschool in, well who guessed it, Ashton. WOoooow great life. No it isn't! It sucks our town is fucked up and so is our school, and believe me you can ask everyone here. But back to the subject, we were talking about me. I'm 17 years old and my very best friend is Maddy Sánchez, she is a bitch but if you need her she will always be there for you, what i want to say with that is, she is the best friend you can have, but you have to get to know her! First things first, she is the loyalists person you will ever meet an she is always dressed as if she wants to go to the Metgala, and hell yeah she would shine like the brightest star in the universe. Not only Maddy is my friend, yeah I'm not on of those lonely Motherfuckers, naah. We also have Raya, she is a drug addict but she is chill tough, you can't really have long conversations, cause she is always high but its always fun with her. I recently met her because she had a thing with Jewel. Jewel, well can't really say much about her she is very fun and always down for partying but also very deep minded.( I dont think that it i very important but to those people always complaining about not enough LGBTQIA+ in Plays. She is a queer transgender woman.) Great so that we have her now let's go on to a very old friend I've lost connection in the last few months, I really gotta say I dont now why, we actually were really close. They were always with me since kindergarten. They never cared about what people said they did what they wanted to and they didn't gave a single fuck about what people said as they were coming out as nonbinary . They just lived their live. But now I'm well aware of what really happed, they had worn a mask ever sigle day and in the evenings they cried theirself to sleep not for weeks or months, no they did that for years and years, and no one knew. As I began hanging around with Raya and Maddy more and more, Alex texted less and nearly never called me. Soon they didn't contacted me anymore. I started doing weed with Raya and fucked around in clubs with Maddy, so I didn't even realized till, I heard they are lying in coma at the hospital cause they tried to kill themself. I didn't believed it at first but as I called Cassandra, Alex's mom, she confirmed it was true. At first I didn't know how to react cause I haven't spoken to them in months, but deep down they still was my childhood friend and I was very down for a few days, i always thought about if I should go and talk to them, even if there's a chance the wouldn't even hear me but on the other hand I can't not go to them. In the end I was sure I had to visit them but not today. Now I have to get the really drunk Maddy home, so she doesn't do anything stupid.

I got her home and lied her safely in her big and cosy bed. Well I didn't drank that much and I'm very awake so I just went over to Rayas house and we smoked some shit and danced round, like I said its always fun. And I know it sounds very cliche, but whatever her mom is dead and her daddy is always gone on bussiness trips. So always free house, whatever we need that friend cause without this friend there wouldn't be any housepartys and no midnight smoking meetings with me and sometimes Jewel. But lets be honest here she is literally the coolest person to hang out, well I also could just say that because I'm high but, she is so cool cause I can be high right now. We were just talking about what she wants to do when she graduated, If she even graduates, she could be a genius but she just simply doesn't want to be, as someone knocked on the door. This bitch really looked me in the eyes and coldly said „I wont open the door". God sometimes she is really going on my nerves, its her freaking house and I have to get up now, fuck you bitch. God I wanna kill her, my head is literally blurry I wasn't even sure I was walking. However I reached the frontdoor and Jewel stood there, totally roughed up and grinning like crazy. No not today, I don't wanna hear her sex stories with these online guys. Every weekend she fucks someone else and then she needs to tell us everything, I kinda don't get why she does it but I always let her talk, well mostly. But not today! „hey Jewel" „ heyyyy gurl I've gotta tell you something. Can I come in." And yeah i know what I'm gonna do now is mean, but god I can't hear that now. „Nah sorry. Raya is already asleep and I was heading to bed as well maybe another time, gurl?" „ uh yeah sure..." I probably should feel bad as she turned around and walked away looking disappointed but I'm too high right now to realize what's going on, so I just closed the door and went back to Rayas room. „Another sex story?" I just nodded and threw myself next to Ray in the bed. She handed me the joint and I inhaled deep. Shit that feels good.