ℍ𝔸ℝ𝔻𝕊ℍ𝕀ℙ (Falling #2)

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Avery

I can hear my heart tumbling in my chest. Tears prick my eyes as I tighten my grip on Damon's neck. He's kissing me. He's actually kissing me.  After what I told him, he still wants me? But this isn't right.

This is wrong, so very wrong.

I can't do this to Will. I can't to this to them. But I can't seem to stop.

"Oh god baby" he whispers, his hands gripping my breasts. I moan into his mouth, my tears rolling down my cheeks. He doesn't seem to notice them because he keeps pulling me back, biting my bottom lip.

When my back hits his bed, that's when I know I've gone too far. We have gone too far.

"Damon" I say, my voice breaking. He tilts my chin up, his eyes piercing my own. How come he makes me feel this way and Will does too? How can two people make me feel this way? I don't like this. It shouldn't be legal.

"I can't do this"

"Sure you can"

He's unbuttoning my jeans and I find the strenght to stop him. Which makes him take his shirt off and that, I can't stop him from doing that.

"Why do you think you didn't tell them about where I am, little liar?"

I swallow, hard. It's like he knows me better than I know myself.

"You belong to me, you always have belonged to me" he whispers in my ear and when his fingers are stroking me, I push him away.

I fucking love him.

How could I be so stupid?

"I am not an object" is the first thing that comes out of my mouth. Surprise fills his features and then, like always, he's closed off again. He never hides his emotions from me. Why start now?

"You're still my slut"

"Damon" I whisper, silently begging him to stop. If one of us can't stop the other, we will do the thing that will break me, that will break Will, and that will break all of us.

"I love him" I say and when he kneels in front of me, takes my hand in his, I don't know how long I can push him away.

"I know," he still brings his mouth to mine and I am overtaken by the anger. By the sadness and by every other emotions he makes me feel.

"Do you? You'd do that to your best friend?" I ask, my hands on his chest. We're both breathing hard, our chest heaving almost in sync.

"It doesn't stop you from kissing me, why should it be different?"

It's different because he's his family. I am just there, he loves me to death and I love him to death. But if I truly did, I wouldn't be here with his best friend, cheating on him.

"We can't do this" I reason, trying to shake off the needy energy. I've been needing Damon since the moment he left. Having him back is like a dream come true, along with my worst nightmare. And I can't do this, I just can't.

"No, we can't" He agrees but he still brushes my hair out of my face. I hate this. I really hate this. Was this his plan all along? Getting me in his secret spot so he can fuck me like old times?