ℍ𝔸ℝ𝔻𝕊ℍ𝕀ℙ (Falling #2)

28

Will

Avery comes back with Damon at her side. And the look they give each other is enough to make my blood boil. We almost all gasped as we see him walking with her. He keeps his right hand on her waist and something inside me snaps.

I clench my teeth and Avery sends me an apologetic look. What was that? What am I supposed to make of it? 

"I heard you were looking for me"

Michael scoffs. Mostly because we know what Damon is capable of. He is here because Avery is what matters to him.

But I am no fool, I see the way she leans into him.

Why?

Did I miss a chapter? Did she fucking flip a switch once again? There is no way. She said she'd choose me if it came down to it. I am honestly starting to regret believing that lie.

"So what do we do?" Damon asks, squeezing Avery's ass. She closes her eyes for a second and it is Rika who holds me back from strangling that motherfucker. She doesn't seem like she's been violated, though. She even enjoys it. That's when I notice her blouse, the buttons aren't in place. Her hair is tangled and her eyes are sloppy. There is absolutely no freaking way that they-

"What do we do? Do you know something we don't?" Kai challenges. I find myself feeling rather angry than anything else. Of course, he knows something we don't, it's Damon.

"Avery will need to be watched, Rika too." 

"Really?"

"Believe me, I'd fucking leave you guys to rot but-"

"But what?" I ask, tilting my head to the side. I dare him to finish his sentence and I have no idea if he does because Avery takes me to my bedroom.

I unclench my fists and stare at her with sadness. All my life Damon has been there for me, always lurking and encouraging me. Fucking asshole just fucked my girlfriend. 

"You slept with him, didn't you?"

Avery stares at me, surprised that I ask. She shakes her head and I think she is telling me that nothing happened. However, I am wrong, I am so wrong.

Her eyes meet my gaze and they are shining. Not because she is in love with me but because tears are sliding down her cheeks.

"I knew it" I whisper. But I didn't, I really didn't know anything at all.

"I knew it," I yell.

Avery cups both of my cheeks and I am taken aback as she tries to kiss my lips. I push her onto my bed and I crumble. Maybe it's okay for her to always run back to Damon but I am so not okay with it.

She is mine, mine.

When is she going to get that inside her head?

"What the actual fuck is wrong with you?"

I have no idea if I am yelling but I know this isn't fair to her. I knew what I was getting into. She was in love with Damon and I thought it was a good idea to finally have her to myself. I was pathetic.

I believed each lie that her lips whispered. And if she tells me she loves me one more time, I will lose it.

Maybe she does, I am not stupid. We do have something together, something completely insane. But it is absolutely nothing compared to what she has with Damon.

"I had to do it, Will," she says. I laugh so incredibly loud that I know for a fact that everyone is listening to us.

"Are you fucking kidding me?"

"Will, I thought-"

"You thought what?"

She stays silent, I don't waste another minute of my time.

"Uh?" I press and her lips are shaking as she starts to cry. 

"You gotta be fucking kidding me."

"Will please jus li-" she sits down and looks at me like she has never seen me before. As if she's scared of me, I can't believe it.

"Listen? Really?"

"Tell me you didn't then."

She goes quiet again. And once again, this piece of shit that you call a heart breaks. It breaks until all I am left with is the desire for her to tell me she loves me.

Because if she does, I'll fall back in her arms and pretend as if nothing happened.

I mean come on, look at Avery. I want her, I need her. She's so fucking beautiful in fucking every way.

I pulled her but I guess I really didn't since I was a rebound.

Fucking Damon.

"Fuck, Avery"

I sit next to her and she's quick to wrap her arms around me. We cry for a while until I realize what's happening.

"Did you ever love me?" I ask through teary eyes. She nods carefully and then kisses the top of my head.

"Oh my god"

"Of course, I love you, you know that."

I seriously doubt it.

And I still choose to believe her. No matter what I know and it is obvious she will always go back to him, I can't seem to let her go. How could I?

"I hate you" I finally say. She pulls away for a second, not even stunned by what I have said. She studies me and her eyes tell me I am right to hate her. But her mouth, god, it keeps telling Me to bend down and fuck her.

There's no way that I'll ever forgive her but if she tells me one more time that she loves me, this could go away.

I am so stupid.

I hate myself for forever falling in love with her. I wanted her to have my babies, even marry her.

Fuck!

"It's not normal Avery, what you are doing"

"It's hard, I fuck-"  I can't finish my sentence without my chest heaving and my heart breaking. It does not just sting, it's bleeding out and I am not sure I want to try and fix it.

"Hardship, right?"

How does she always come up with the best word for every situation? It makes me hate her more.

"Yeah"

At least she describes it right. I have no idea what to do next and I certainly don't want her to leave me. If she does, it's all true. It means that my best friend is no longer my best friend and the woman of my dreams does not love me anymore. And not only that but I have to work with both because I love her and I want to protect her. There's no other choice.

I fucking knew she would be the death of us.