Always and Forever | DARKNESS SERIES #5 ✔️

Chapter 112 Liam's POV

I can't believe I nearly lost her. I thought Amy was hard.. That was nothing to the feeling I'm feeling right now. I know she's here now and awake actually OK and apologetic knowing how that would make me feel. My selfless queen always thinking of how I am. I don't know what I'd do if I did lose her. I'd just be the beast. Forever. I'd be no good for anyone and I know that as sad as it is. I love all my children but without there mum, the centrepiece I'd be nothing. We all need her. I need her.
I sit in the hospital recliner feeding Hunter as Tyler and my queen sleep. I just stare into eyes inlove. I didn't think it was possible to love someone like I do the girls but I really do.
"My little man. I love you so much already. Your gonna be loved and spoilt by everyone" I tell him quietly as he drinks making adorable little noises as he holds onto my finger. So precious.
He slowly starts to stop drinking so I wind him thinking I missed all this with Ruby. I sigh heavily and look to my sleeping queen. I can't lose you. I need to keep you safe always. But she's so strong and fearless. My amazing queen.
I finish winding Hunter and hold him close in my arms rocking him back to sleep. My perfect little baby boy. My emotions are all over the place.

As I place Hunter into a crib next to my queen I kiss him quickly putting him down just as Tyler stirs awake. I pick him up rocking him as I make another bottle. I sit back in my chair and start to feed him watching him closely. They resemble each other way too much. But I can see the difference. Is that just because there mine? Either way it's a good thing.
"I love you so much too little man, everyones gonna love and spoil you aswell" I tell him and he grabs my finger too. I can't get enough of them. My heart feels like it's about to burst.
I just watch him holding him close as he feeds away and I hear Stacey starting to wake up. I look up at her smiling and she smiles back rubbing her eyes. My perfect baby.
"Hey baby, did I sleep long?" she asks sleep groggily and I just smile at her so happy she's here infront of me.
"A couple of hours but the boys are good.. You need your rest baby. We'll go home in the morning" I tell her wanting her relaxed for now. She's most important. The boys are good wherever we are.
I start to wind Tyler and I can feel Stacey watching me. I look up at her to see her smiling.
"I love you in dad mode my king. So hot" she says and I chuckle shaking my head.
"I love you in every mode my queen" I tell her winking and she laughs and it's so good to hear. I'd of missed that alot. Stop fuck! She's OK and infront of you. She's good! I shout at myself and rock Tyler back to sleep. I need some sort of shut eye. It's gonna be a long day tomorrow.
I stand up and walk over to my queen kiss her forehead and rub down her cheek.
"Sleep beautiful. The boys are OK, in here too. I love you always" I tell her feeling my emotions again. Fuck sake.
"They'll always be OK if there with us.. You baby. I love you too always" she says and leans forward kissing Tyler so I swoop down and get one to. I need it.
I sound like fucking Jason. I need to get a grip. She's OK.
I place Tyler down in the crib next to his brother and go relax back on my chair as everyone's asleep now. I listen to them all breathing and smile. There all OK. All three are coming home in the morning. It's gonna be good. Everyone is gonna be there. Our family all together.
But I need to be strong and there for my queen. She needs rest and I need to be helpful as much as possible so she can recover. I need her better. Not just for us. But herself. She's gonna hate it.

Suddenly my eyes pop open to one of the boys crying. I jump up and stretch my arching body and pick up Hunter. I guess it's feeding time again. I look at my watch and it's been two hours.
"Hungry baby, we're just like daddy. I see you little one" I coo smiling at him as I grab the bottle making it quickly.
I place a bib around his neck and relax back with him as he slowly starts to feed.
"Where all going home soon little man" I tell him staring into his eyes. He slowly starts to fall back to sleep and starts feeding slower with his eyes closed. I pull the bottle from his mouth and start to wind him but all its doing is sending him into a deeper sleep untill he burps. Good boy. I take him in to his crib and change his nappy quickly hoping he stays asleep. I take him in my arms and place him back into the crib after rocking him a little knowing his brother's gonna wake soon for a feed and I need to prepared for him.
Stacey stirs awake and he eyes pop open.
"Everything OK?" she asks looking around.
"Yeah hunters just had another feed. Tyler be up soon for his. Go back to sleep baby" I tell her and she yawns and shakes her head.
"I'll sort Tyler I feel OK baby. But can you give me the bottle and everything from over there, I can reach him tho" she says smiling and I nod grabbing what she needs.
I place everything on the bed and walk around to her kiss her.
"Go sleep baby, I've got this. Thank you" she says and I smile at her rubbing her cheek.
"No thanks needed baby, I'm here. Always" I tell her and she smiles up at me happily.
I'll always be here. No matter what. She is my wife. My goddamn world. Nothing will compare to her and ours.