Poetry for the Heart

If I Die

I find it rather amusing
I find it quite sad
I fake a smile and say it's okay
But in reality
I can barely make it through the day
Because I feel so insignificant
So shitty
That I only disturb people
Why the fuck do I feel so unwanted???
If I die right now
Who would care???
Because no one needs me
I learned this the hard way
Plus
If I say what I feel, I'll fuck it up
Or say nothing and let it fuck me up
I find it hard to be strong
When I'm so lonely and damaged
To a point where
The dreams where I'm dying
Are the best ones I've ever had
But that's life