Poetry for the Heart

Nothing and Everything

I feel nothing
At the same time,
I feel everything
Without purpose or plan
I wonder, why
Everything I try goes amiss
Unable to fit in
I keep to myself
To set a goal
To not lose control
Why does it never feel right??
This feeling in my stomach
It's sinking
Sometimes it all feels like too much
The fog appears
Nothing is clear
Thoughts get lost
Moving to fast
I can't keep track, wandering through
Doors in my head
Too many are broken
No way to open
I try and express the feeling within
But it isn't accepted
They say they want to help
But they don't want to hear
People fear they will be infected
So they treat me like I'm demented
It is easier for them to reject it
What they can't understand
What it is like
To feel nothing
And at the same time
To feel everything