I made sure that nobody else saw me leaving the school. I asked Anthony to meet me by the lake where we last spoke and he suggested that we see each other before school starts. I wanted to meet up last night but he pointed out how suspicious that might be, at least this way I could just say that I went for a morning walk to clear my head.
My heart was beating out of my chest, for ages I had spent my life trying to run from this man and now I was making secret plans to meet him. If I could have seen myself doing this a few months ago I would have thought that I have lost my mind. Maybe I have lost my mind.
Before turning the corner I took in a deep breath in an attempt to calm my nerves. My stomach was doing somersaults because of how anxious I was, the last thing I wanted to do was puke all over the guy - even though he deserved it. My entire body was covered by one massive phone tree so I craned my neck to see if he was there yet and low and behold there he was. Pacing up and down the edge of the lake. He wore a black trench coat, a white shirt, dark grey pants, and formal-looking shoes.
I didn't know this was a business meeting. I looked like I was about to go to a slumber party and braid hair while he looked like the CEO of a multi-million dollar company.
You can do this! I reminded myself.
No one puts baby in a corner! I giggled quietly at the voice in my head.
"Bellamy?" I heard his voice call out.
I froze, oh shoot.
"Anthony," I cleared my throat, "You made it." I crossed my arms and slowly made my way toward him. Exude confidence.
He furrowed his brows, "You look sick."
His words caught me off guard and sent me tumbling over a few stray cobblestones. Before I could hit the ground I grabbed onto the sides of his coat and face planted into his chest.
"You've got to be kidding me," I quickly picked myself up again, "I'm sor-" before I could finish my sentence I noticed that my concealer and mascara had rubbed off onto his shirt.
Kill me right now. Immediately do it. Take me away and lock me up so that I never see the light of day ever again.
Anthony chuckled, "You okay there tiger?" he wouldn't be laughing if he knew what was on his - what looked very expensive - shirt.
I shrugged it off, "I'm cool," a tight-lipped smile formed on my face, "Cool, calm, and collected."
He nodded, "Okay well that's good to know," A smile tugged at the corners of his lips, "So, I'm really glad you wanted to meet up, I've got a lot I want to tell you."
I rubbed the back of my neck, "Yeah there is a lot I wanted to ask you."
He seemed surprised, "Uh yeah, of course, I'm sure there is." I hope he didn't think that I just wanted to see him for memory's sake.
I cocked my head to the side and gestured for him to follow me as I began walking down the dirt pathway. We were quiet for a bit, admiring the beauty of the forest and all it had to offer. It reminded me of what it was like when we were together all those years ago before everything went into chaos.
Seeing him again like this wasn't at all what I thought it would be like. I thought that once I saw him I would feel nothing but hatred and anger but now all I felt was an ache in my chest that I hadn't felt for ages. I wanted to hate him but I physically couldn't. I thought I did but I guess not.
I cleared my throat once more and began gathering my thoughts, I didn't want to seem unprepared.
"When I saw you last you spoke to me about someone, it was Keket right?" I cocked a brow.