Laying in bed thinking about life. I've been thinking about the guy I like lately, and if I should even tell him before the end of the year. Then give him the rest of the summer to think about it? I don't know. He's a great guy. And it's probably blatantly obvious that I like him, but I want to come right out and say it, but that would be weird. I don't want to be like "Oh hey, how are you? By the way I have a crush on you. Bye." I think not. That would be weird. Then again it seems like I like a lot of guys when I'm really just being nice. It's like "Ohmygosh! Esther!! I saw you talking to that guy and being realllly nice to him! DO YOU LIKE HIM???!" Naw. I hate it when people do that to me. It sucks. And plus they scream so the people in freaking Japan who make Samsung can her them. I try to walk away when people talk about "who I like" but they always end up like "Fine, if your not going to tell me who you like them I will never speak to you again." Naw. So now I'm just really debating if I should do it and risk rejection or not and never know the reaction. For all I know the person could pull a gun out and shoot themselves. Just saying. I am actually really good at making up "what if" scenarios. And wriggling my way out of awkward conversations and drama. But sometimes you just gotta face it head on, chin up.
QOTD: Have you ever told anyone you had a crush on them?
SOTD: Trap Queen | Fetty Wap.
See ya later
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