Book 1: The Alpha Who Saved Me

Chapter 6: Possibilities

Jessa sees Kai the Alpha of this territory. She comes closer thinking that while she is here, she should pay her respects. Since she is just passing through his territory unannounced. Almost to his booth she over hears Kai talking to Leia.
So these little bitchs escaped. I knew when Marcus said it was an easy kill. Something just didn't add up. They didn't put up much of a fight so their mangy pups could get away. Fuck I have to tell Marcus before they tell the royals. It's bad enough they are here with the Lycans. Jessa quickly walks out of the restaurant and calls Marcus with the news.
Kai paid for our pizza and has about 20 more pizzas delivered to the guards stations. The warriors have been doing double shifts since our arrival. Kai, I mean Alpha Kai tries to feed them a little bit more, every so often so they can get full when they switch off and on, on the long patrols. Catching naps when they can. I worry our presents has been a burden. I keep thanking everyone for their hospitality.
Kai tells me not to worry it's helped sharpen their skills and adjust their training methods for future pack warriors.
We finish the night by stopping by to see Joan. Tyee reported he saw her fingers move once. Doc Hudson said he wants to try to see if she will respond to light therapy in the morning. Tyee refused to leave her side tonight. Kai gives him a look but doesn't push the issue. Tyee tell me to rest and that the doc would be in at 8:30 am to start testing. I thank him and Kai drove us back to the pack house. At my room door Kai paused.
Aye Leia I have to confess something.
Yeah.
I kind of want to kiss you.
Kind of?
Yes but I kind of don't want to as well.
Wow I don't know if I should be offended right now or not.
I don't know, I just don't want this night to end. It's been nice getting to know you. Also I'm afraid if we kiss I don't want it to end up a night that I'm not sure we're ready for yet.
I see.
Am I being too silly?
No, you are just being honest. I should probably be honest with you as well. I don't want this night end either. It's the first time in a long time that I feel carefree. And it has been kind of nice. You know not worrying all the time. Look I don't know where life is going to take us once we say good night. But I would like to remember this night as being perfect.
Kai turns so I can only see his blue eye.
Kai why do you do that?
Do what Leia?
Only show one eye at all time?
Most people think it's weird that I have two different colored eyes.
I will admit at first I was shocked. It's not every day you meet someone with blue eyes and dark skin. But to have only one blue one dark brown eye and dark skin. it's very unique
Yeah tell me about it. I have heard that my whole life.
Most people in the village thought that I was cursed. That my eyes were a bad omen. That somehow I was touched by a spirit in the womb. But my mom admitted that her great great grandfather was known for having the same eyes. No one has ever made fun of me for it. They have been scared of me for most of my life.
That has to make for a very lonely road. Leia says.
Yes and no. I like to think it ties me to my ancestors. In our history books it talks about the blue eye being the mark of the alpha. I'm sure if I have children one day. One is sure to carry this trait. Especially if someone with alpha blood has my pups.
Yeah possibly. But don't hide it. Not to me. It's what makes you, you Kai. I'm not scared of it. There are worse boogeymen out there trust me.
Going into my room. I close the door. Turning my back to it. I slide down the door. And sit cross legged leaning against it. I picture Kia being on the other side with his forehead pressed to the door.
I know it's super silly. But Kai makes me think about the possibilities that life may hold. With my parents a true mate meant a lifetime of happiness. And truly meant til death due us part.
Is that even a possibility for me? Life as I know it does not exist anymore. I have to find my new reality. And with everything that Kai has said tonight. It could very well be here in South Carolina. But if I choose him, then I choose to be Luna. My Lineage and my heritage says I am made for it. But my upbringing and my trauma has me thinking I am not fit to be Luna. Maybe I should talk to Mama Pen. First things first.... Joan. Without her I'm not sure what my future holds. My screws maybe a little loose from watching my parents die. But I will be a few fries short of a Happy meal if I lose my sister too. I don't think I can survive another bond break. I didn't sleep for weeks after my parents. Between the nightmares and the pain I just couldn't. It was like falling down a black hole full of branches. And not seeing the branches but hitting every one of them on the way down. And falling on to a cold hard floor. Passing out and waking up to a little tiny light at the end of a tunnel. And having to crawl on your hands and knees until you reached the light. And as it draws closer. Better yet as you crawl closer. You can see that it's a beautiful place for you to lay down and heal. But it's so far away that you don't think you have the strength to get there. My sister was the little voice in the back of my head telling me I can do it. I can make it the whole time I was crawling out of that darkness.
Dear Goddess
I whisper my pleas on the night air. Please don't take my sister. She still has life left in her to live. For the love of all things good and wholesome. Please oh please let Joan wake up.
I slip into my night shirt and fall asleep on top of the covers.