The Legend of Meiko

Fixing it

...I can't keep living this way anymore. I've known that for a while and yet I haven't done anything to change it. 

Sure I don't skip meals or actively seek to harm myself anymore, but I tend to sabotage my relationships. And that makes me more miserable than anything.

I don't know why either. I don't understand it. But as much as I hate it, I'm stuck with me, and I don't have any other choices at this point. I can't spend my days loathing the thought of having to face certain people and then acting like a coward when I eventually do. Not anymore.

...I'm going to find a new therapist. I'll try all the therapies if I have to. I cannot keep letting my brain get in the way of the things I care most about.