The Legend of Meiko

I Can't

Lately, all the bad things from my past have come back. Nightmares, panic attacks, all of it.

The way I used to cope with that was through Kaito. I've probably spent countless hours just crying as he held me.

And with the return of all those bad things, he's back too. And so I was selfish.

I cried a lot and held onto him and pretended that things between us were like how they used to be, which was stupid.

Even after I calmed down, I wouldn't let go. I was afraid that if I started talking then it would all be over.

It was completely inappropriate of me at the current stage of our relationship. He... was kissing my face, too...

It can't happen again under these circumstances, and I am going to stay away from him as long as I can. I'm too embarrassed to live up to it.