My Plus Size Lover

Chapter 5

August

My heart shattered in pieces when I found Monae' laying in ha' own blood. I immediately called the ambulance once I closed the door.

Once they showed up, the twins was walking back and wanted to know what happened.

I just walked away from them, especially Saraiya because this is mainly ha' fault. "August, what happened to Monae'?" Saraiya asked. I just looked at ha' with a straight face like is you serious.

From a bitch who threatened her wants to know what happened. I just laughed and walked away from ha' and she just grabbed my wrist.

"WHAT HAPPENED?" she yelled and I just grabbed ha' neck and threw ha' ass to the wall.

"She tried to kill ha'self after what you said to ha'. Now she is on ha' way to the hospital fighting for ha' life." I said gripping onto ha' neck a little harder making it hard for ha' to breathe.

What's so crazy about the whole thing, Sarai did not once help ha' sister because she knew Saraiya was doing wrong in the first place. I let ha' neck go and went to the hospital to meet up with Mama Janet and my ma'.

New Orleans Family Medical Center . . . . . . .

I definitely do not like seeing Monae' like this. She had all kind of tubes attached to ha'. It was really breaking a nigga's heart to see ha' in this position.

The doctor said the cut wasn't too bad or anything. She lost alot of blood and slipped into a reduced coma and supposedly to wake soon. Ha' gramma is in the lobby crying ha' eyes out with my ma.

I looked at Monae' and grabbed ha' hands into mines then kissed them. I felt a couple of tears shed down my face. I couldn't help my emotion. 

"Jesus, I know I don't come to you as I should, but I am asking you to heal this beautiful girl you created for me. Please wake ha' up. She has enough people to support ha' for whatever she is struggling with. I want to start over with ha'. I need ha' in my life lord." I said as I broke down.

I stared at ha' beautiful flawless skin. I held onto ha' hands tighter for ha' to feel that I am right by ha' side no matter what.

"Monae', please wake up baybeh. Whatever you are struggling with, I'll be there for you and I am so sorry about everything that went down. If you don't wake up, I will forever blame this on myself. I need you, girl. Even tho' we haven't been around each other for long, I still wanna be with you. I want you to wake up so I can show you how much you mean to me and that I show you how much of man I can be to you. Baybeh, don't leave me, wake up for me. Your gramma is crying ha' heart for you. Baybeh, wake up, please wake up."

I am not giving up on ha' at all.

Monae'

All I see is darkness. Its very quite too, plus cold. I just wished I could wake myself up, but I can't for some reason.

"Monae'" I heard.

I was frighten because I realized that I wasn't the only one in here. My heart was beating so fast.

"It's okay, my child. I am not going to hurt you!" I heard him say.

"Jesus?" I asked as the light shines in my face and I see the golden gates. Jesus is finally letting me come home. I was walking closer to the gate and I noticed it was not opening at all.

"My child, it is not your time to come home." he said as I frowned.

"Why, I don't wanna be there on Earth at all. I am tired of people hurting me. I just wanna be happy"

"And you are going to be happy" he replied.

I scoffed, "How?" I asked.

"Look who is sitting by you. Ever since you showed up at this hospital, he has been praying non-stop for 4 hours while you were in coma." 

I saw August holding my hands and gripping on it. I think he was giving me a sign to wake up and I am trying. I started to to shed some tears. Maybe August do care about me after all.

"See, you are going to have people who are going to take good care of you and care for you and your needs. You just have to be patient with me, my child." He said as he was wiping my tears off my face.

"I have the greatest plans for you in the future, but you gotta live your life right. In the beginning it is going to be hard for you, but eventually you will be comfortable and going to be able to open up to people. Just know I got your back no matter what the situation is. You are never alone in this. So, my child, I want you to go and live your life. Start fresh from the top with August." He said as the light was slowly fading and my eyes started to open.

"August . . ." I managed to say out my mouth. He snapped his head at my directions and smiled. "You're awake baybeh. Don't ever scare me like that." He said.

All I saw was pure sadness in his eyes so I began to cry again because I was being selfish to end my life and he was showing me he cares.

"August, I am so sorry." I said in between tears. He shook his head. "No baybeh, no need to apologizes. I am the one who should be apologizing."

We just stared into each others and he leaned in to kiss my lips. I didn't even bother to break the kiss because it was the best feeling ever. All of a sudden, we heard somebody clear their throat, only to see my gramma. I felt bad, her eyes was red and puffy. My poor gramma had to go through this.

She smiled at us. "Are you okay, baby?" she asked in a low tone. "Yes, gramma, I am." I said giving her a warm smile.

"Okay baby, I'll go and get the doctor." she said walking out leaving August and I alone. I looked into August's beautiful chocolate eyes and all I see is sadness. I know all he sees is hurt. 

"Ah ha, Ms. Monae', you are awake." the doctor said as she came in. "You are very lucky to be alive, young lady. The cut wasn't too bad, but we couldn't stop you from bleeding. You lost so much blood, you went right into a coma. We did a few tests on you and everything came back in perfect shape. We are going to keep you a few days to run more tests on you." she said as was writing on her pad.

I felt so relieved. After the doctor left I looked at my gramma and August then started to cry all over again. I am such a big baby. They showered me with nothing but love. Now I gotta live my life to see what the Lord has in stores for me.

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