Stay l Taekook

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"So that's it? You two are just over?" Namjoon and Yoongi were sitting on the couch in front of me.

"Don't you feel sad?" Yoongi asked, looking me up and down.

"No, I'm fine. I do feel a little weird seeing him tomorrow though...It's going to be awkward"

"Thank god he's not in the play with you cause that would have been so awkward" Namjoon chuckled and leaned back down on the couch.

"That's true. But we're still in the same class and club"

"Technically you're not in the music club. Besides, you haven't gone ever since the play's begun"

"Yeah, that's true. Do you think he'll go back to his bully like ways with me?" I was so nervous that I had begun biting my fingernail unconsciously.

"There's no way to know, Tae"

"You're right, Yoongi. Do you think he's mad because he's sad? Or was he simply humiliated?"

"I'd say both, Tae"

"Same" I looked at my friends, thank god I had them.

I had been standing up all this time while I told them what happened earlier today but I was now feeling like my knees were just about to give up. I sat down on the couch and sighed, maybe getting involved with Jungkook hadn't been one of my best ideas.

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It was pouring rain outside today so I decided to take my car to school. After a quick run from the parking lot to the school hallway, I ran and almost slipped about ten times before finally reaching my classroom.

"You're late, Mr. Kim" I apologized to my teacher and went straight to my desk.

This was my first time being late since I was in primary school and my mother had dropped me off late. How embarrassing... I took out my book and pencil and started doodling, I tried to figure out a way to look behind me without it looking like I was looking behind me but I gave up when I did a wrong move and discovered a new, very sore, muscle in my neck. I wanted to see how Jungkook looked so badly but I simply couldn't without him noticing.

In the end I decided to draw him again, he had a very pretty face and I absolutely adored his hair. Especially in drawings. Recess came and I went to get myself a ginger ale. On my way back I saw Jungkook coming this way and decided to go say hi. I walked towards him and our eyes met. I felt a tingle in the tips of my fingers but shook it away as I stopped in front of him. I was about to speak but he walked past me and didn't stop.

What the hell? I turned around and watched him walk. Did he not see me then? Guess I'll just have to try again later. I went back to the classroom and tried to think about anything that wasn't Jungkook related but nothing came to my mind.

After a few very long hours, lunch came. Namjoon and I waited for Yoongi before walking around school for some time until we went to the cafeteria. Inside I saw Jungkook was sitting alone at a table.

"Guys, there's no one with him. Jimin and Hoseok aren't here yet"

"So?"

"I'm going to go talk to him, if you see them can you please distract them for a bit? Just until I'm done?" I looked at my friends who nodded their head and went to stand near the door.

I took a deep breath and made my way towards Jungkook's table. He was wearing the school's hoodie which looked amazing on him and had his hair tied back in a ponytail. For a second I stopped to stare, he was truly out of this world.

My phone buzzed in my pocket, bringing me out of my staring trance. I saw a text from Yoongi telling me to quit staring. I looked behind me and saw my friends pointing at Jungkook and telling me to hurry. I shoved my phone back inside my pocket and sat down opposite to Jungkook.

"Hey" I wanted to start light but felt kind of stupid when he didn't answer. "Can we talk?"

"I don't want to talk to you, Taehyung"

"Jugnkook, please" I leaned in forward, trying to get closer to him. "You're important to me and I'd love it if we could be friends"

"Well you don't always get everything you want"

"I still care about you and I think this could all be so much easier if we could be civil around each other" I say.

"Why? Because this is hard for you? Because you were the one that got judged, dumped and humiliated? Oh no, that was me" He got up and looked at me dead in the eye. "You've got some nerve, Taehyung, I'll give you that"

He took his tray and left. I watched him walk away as I got up, but stayed there, watching.

"So, how did it go?" Namjoon and Yoongi sat down at the table with two trays.

"Not good. I don't think he wants to be friends with me, or even see me for that matter..." I let myself fall on the chair and sighed.

"You broke up with him, you know. So, shouldn't you be fine with never talking to him again?"

"I broke up with him because of my principles, not because I didn't love him anymore"

"Well that's because you're stupid" Yoongi said and drank from his water.

"Why stupid?" Yoongi gave me a jaded look and Namjoon shook his head. "What?" I asked again.

"When you take a decision you should never base it only on principle, there are other factors to take in, like context and emotions"

"Why? My principles are what make me what I am, a good human being"

"Having principles is a good thing yes, but they hold you to unhuman standards. We all have principles but there is not one human being on earth that will ever live up to them one hundred percent"

"Yeah" Namjoon intervened. "Like my sister who was always like I hate cheating, people should never cheat, those who cheat are horrible persons. Until her best friend cheated and she had to come up with a reason as to why she didn't hate her all of a sudden and why she was still her best friend. You know, a reason to explain why that time, cheating was okay"

"Ohhhh, yes I think I get it. So, are you guys saying that I jumped the gun? That even though was Jungkook did went against my principles, he deserved a chance to be heard and that maybe the circumstances could have swayed my opinion of him?"

"There you go" Namjoon said.

"Besides, we all did crap that we shouldn't have done. It doesn't take someone ten years to grow and learn, sometimes a month is enough for someone to realize they've been going down the wrong road"

I spent the rest of the day letting what my friends said sink in. Maybe they were right. I mean maybe if I was still clinging to Jungkook and thinking about him so much, was because I wasn't over him. Had I just been convincing myself to hate him when deep down knowing about his past didn't truly bother me? 

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FYI this story is coming to an end👀