Needy Lips

idiot

Tell them I was happy, and my heart is broken

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I was sixteen when I found out something was wrong with me. Everyone around me has or had their first kiss, first love, or at least someone they can trust. I have nothing like that. I have some friends, but I don't trust them that much, we're just having fun

All I'm doing every time is reading, hanging out with friends, or making music.

I started with music when I was little, my dad always supported me, he bought me my guitar and signed me up for music lessons which I left a few years back but I'm still thankful for him

He is nothing like my mom, she never mentioned anything about my singing or making music. She knows I'm doing something but she was never interested, but don't get me wrong, she cares about me just not my music

I stood up from my bed and made my way downstairs.

We live in a house in California. I know it's cliche but who cares, I love it here. My brother Michael always tells me it's the best country in the whole world

He's seventeen soon eighteen while I'm going to be seventeen in a few months. We're not close like in other families but he still cares about me and is protective of me. I found out once I hugged my ex-best friend John. Mike freaked out on place so I guess he cares a little bit

"Dad, I've finally finished the song. I'll sing it to you tonight, alright?" I jumped on my dad's back while he laughed

"Okay El, can't wait" he slowly put me down and handed me a plate with breakfast

I thanked him before sitting behind the table. My name is Lily but he calls me El as a spelling for L, it's maybe weird but he's the only one who calls me that and I love it about him

"Morning losers" my brother walks into the room with a cap on his head

"You're not going to school like that are you?" I frowned while eating my pancake

"Bitch it's a new style and look at these" he pointed at his biceps while flexing them.

I have to admit my brother has a pretty good body but that doesn't change the fact he's a total douchebag

I just rolled my eyes at his cockyness and stood up from the table "bye dad, have a good day" I kissed my father on his cheek and left with car keys in my hand

I would say my family isn't rich but that would be a lie. My mom is a lawyer which makes her good money but she's not home really often. I see her maybe a few days a month and that is just when she gets home from her case

And my dad, he's a chef. Makes good money but he's home just for a few hours a day.

At least I have friends to meet up with and forget about the fact that I don't see my parents often

I sat into my grey Mercedes and started the car. I often ride with Mike but with his weird outfit today, I'm gonna survive without him

The radio just started playing music on which I sang as I always do, this radio station is the best

I made it to school after five minutes. I pulled my car into the parking lot and found someplace where no one would vandalize my little honey. Yes there are these people here

As soon as I got out of the car, my 'best' friend Penelope jumped on me and hugged me with that stupid smile that annoys everyone but we love her anyway

"Heeeey, you're ready for tonight?" She squeaked

What it is tonight? I don't really know and I don't really care. Everything our group of friends does is funny but I'm not really in the mood to do anything