celebrity one shots

A renewal of vows, MF&SN

Warnings: Angst, fluff
Mick Fleetwood, Stevie Nicks, Lindsey Buckingham

I've had this sort of hole in my chest since the day you left and I don't know how much longer I can go on.

I'm terrified that one day my mental health will get the best of me.

We- I have a daughter, she's gorgeous a beautiful mix of the both of us, unfortunately...

She's got your crystal Blue eyes and stupid obnoxious curls that I love so much... god and the way she looks giggling even for a baby she, well I can't explain.

How do you say goodbye when part of your heart still wants to hold on? I've thought about it until everything leads me right back to you.

You might not have been my first love but you were the love that made all the other loves irrelevant.

I'm writing this on paper because I know if I ever saw you I'd crumble back into nothing. You hurt me and I said sorry, why? Because I loved you no matter what you did I loved you and I thought you loved me too.

I was so afraid of losing you, that I lost myself in the process of doing whatever I could to make you stay and in the end, it still wasn't enough.

I wasn't enough and I sit here drowning in nothing and still everything all at once.

You said "forever" and I believed you like a puppy being told they're going to the park.

It's silly, I saw it coming. I noticed the changes, and yet I still held on for as long as I could.

Hopefully, wherever you are I hope you're happy Lindsey Buckingham.

Signed Y/n

Y/n's pov:

As I sign off the whatever you'd like to call it since it wasn't much of a letter but more so a vent on paper.

I look down at the little girl who makes my world better picking her up I couldn't help but smile.

"Y/n!" Mick I thought my smile widening "in here!" I called out giggling "and where's here?" He laughed.

"The bedroom love" I waited for his footsteps "ah there you are" he smiled making his way over.

"Mhm right, where I said I was" I laughed as his beard tickled my face lightly "you look gorgeous" Mick complemented kissing my lips softly.

"Me?" I laughed after my daughter I looked horrible, just a tired shell of myself "no Beverly, of course, you Y/n".

My cheeks blushed it was just like Mick "thank you" I whispered looking up, Beverly still in my arms.

"Heard from Lindsey?" Mick asked bitterly "y'know I'll never forgive him for what he did to you both" his tone changed as he looked down at the bubbly little girl.

" I know" I swallowed nodding slightly Mick was amazing almost too amazing as if at any time he'd be ripped away.

"Mick.." I trailed it may have sounded stupid but I needed answers, I needed to know he just didn't want to get at Lindsey.

"Yes?" He curiously gazed at me "do you love me?" My voice was quiet but strong Beverly tilted her head looking at the adults above.

"Of course, I do what type of question is that?" His eyes held his heart and I knew he was truthful.

Pushing him a bit further "why?

"Why what?"

"Why do you love me?" Everything was on the line.

He looked flabbergasted.

"Why? Because... I want you on your bad days just as much as I want you on your good ones. At the end of the day, I want it to be you, me and Stevie. I want your late nights and early mornings. I want you when you're young and I want you when you're old. I want to be yours in every world, in every universe, always. I'd choose you, in a hundred lifetimes, in a hundred worlds, in any version of reality, I'd find you and I'd choose you. Trust me, I'll be there when there's no one. I could never unlove you, I want you for you, no other reason, just you. I'm always going to love you"

At that moment, in that time I had never felt more loved or whole not even with Lindsey.

Swiftly I grabbed the back of his neck pulling him down I kissed him desperately as if to tell him all the words I couldn't quite voice.

Too lost in the moment we had forgotten Beverly it was only until she tugged harshly on Mick's beard that we had broken apart.

"I'm sorry little love" he apologised taking her out of my arms and into his own, this right here was where I could remain.

"I love you Mick more than life itself and it scares me, I could just talk to you for hours and never get bored. I love you in a way I can't explain. You're my never-ending thought, you could ruin me mentally and I'd still wish you the best, I'm always gonna stand by your side no matter what. I'm in love with everything about you, I feel safe when I'm with you, you Mr Mick John Kells Fleetwood along with Miss Stephanie Lynn Nicks and little miss Beverly Paige Fleetwood Nicks are my home." I breathed out everything that was on my mind and heart, everything I felt and everything I was.

"What's with the renewal of vows?" Stevie joked entering the bedroom before spotting Beverly.

"Oh..look how big you've gotten angel, missed mommy baby?" Stevie gushed twirling the girl in her soft arms.

Cradling her head Stevie looked back at us "so-?" She asked raising her eyebrows "what?" Not catching what she was throwing.

"When can I show her off?" Stevie whined "Stephanie Lynn Nicks you are not taking our daughter alone" Mick laughed taking Beverly back.

The baby only kicked in refusal "see, she prefers her other mommy, not her smelly old daddy" Steph joked scooping Beverly back.

"I am not old"

Mick and I made eye contact smiles gracing our faces at the pair in front interacting.

Stevie stops her actions "has you know who tried to meet her?" Referring to Lindsey shaking my head I raised a hand to lightly graze Beverly's head.

"No, doesn't know either and preferably I'd like what's best for her and if Lindsey doesn't want to be here I'm not going to force something," I admitted looking into Stevie's brown orbs she smiled understandingly.

"Back to earlier subjects why wasn't I invited to renew my vows? She joked just like Stephanie to brighten the mood.

"Alright then Steph have a seat" I guided her to the large bed.

"You Stevie make me want to plan my future again. When I'm with you, life just makes sense. You're my peace in this chaotic world, your eyes are magical. You and Mick both have a part of me that I don't give out to anybody. The sheer amount of joy I get from being around both of you is unmatched. I have looked at you in a million different ways and have loved you in each" I spoke with meaning poetry to Stevie's ears.

"My turn" she gushed

"You both are the most real thing I have ever felt, you are the peace I crave in this chaotic world. I've seen you at your worst and still think you're the best, I'd sit outside with you at two am and listen to all your problems. For better or worse, you have me because you three all are the best part of my life. When I chose to love you, I chose your bad days, I chose the days where you don't feel yourself, I chose the tears, the pain, I want to love you the way you deserve"

And this, this right here is when I knew I no longer needed him, that we'd all be okay.

You Lindsey Buckingham broke my heart and I apologised, I'll never regret meeting you only the lesson I had to learn.

Thank you for everything.