3-Minute Passion (BoyxBoy)

Chapter 25

[JAMES' POV]

I was ready to let go but you held me back..

You crushed my heart and told me everything I lack..

I cried for days till my eyes were sore..

And now you are begging for my heart you once tore?

The damage you made put a hole in my heart..

You made me realize we're destined to be far apart..

And letting you go is a way to heal,

for all those pain I tried to conceal..

I will never regret the love I hoped to show..

For I know that at the end, I have to let go..

Taking chances for this love to grow and make it last..

But this just made time passed by so fast..

We became strangers to ourselves and so as your love..

Love was replaced by pain and this is not I wanted to have..

And now my freedom is within your grasp..

Don't try to hesitate for this will be the first and last..

I repeat the words in my head. This is the first poem that I wrote when I started high school. The words meant nothing to me, it's just a poem for my English class, but I think I now know what it's for, what it feels like to actually feel the pain of being broken hearted. Who would've thought that a guy like me has found the true meaning of the struggle of falling in love?

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Nicole took me back to the hotel room. I was a wreck. I told her that I'll just let the pain pass by and that she could get her rest. She must be tired from taking care of me. Red has been trying to get a hold of me ever since we've left the restaurant. It's not really my intention to bust him off his deed, but the thought of knowing Red in the same room with me and he's with a different person, I just couldn't bare being mortified of the speculation that we're actually together even if it's clear that we're not. I checked my phone and I have 20 missed calls from him. Now he suddenly wants to have an actual conversation with me? I don't know if he's acting this way because he got caught or he lied. Either way he still did what he did and I'm not ready to hear him out. I've grown tired of always trying to understand the things that shouldn't be.

And letting you go is a way to heal,

for all those pain I tried to conceal..

This line speaks a million things. I've been keeping the pain to myself. And the crying is the physical form of it. What if it's right, that if I let go, it is the only way to heal the pain he caused? Besides, I wrote the line myself. I just didn't know that the time will come and it'll mean something to me.

"J-James?" Nicole groans. It's already past 4 PM. I look over to her. My eyes are a little sore, but I'm feeling a little better. She lifts her head up the pillow and forces a smile while her eyes are still closed.