3-Minute Passion (BoyxBoy)

Chapter 23

[JAMES' POV]

I've fallen asleep waiting for Red to even text me. I open my cellphone and nothing. Not a word from him. Worry dissolved from me as soon as I shut my eyes last night. I'm beyond pissed at him. Whatever happened to him loving me. That piece of shit.

I do my usual routine before heading to school. If he doesn't want to talk, hell, I could not talk to him for days if that's what he wants.

As I enter the hallway of school. I begin to feel heavy. I can't lie to myself. I could never avoid him for days without balling my eyes out. I just want answers. I take my cellphone out and lean on my locker. First period won't start for about 10 minutes, giving me enough time to text Red. I swallow my pride and begin to text:

Red,

It'll be a day without hearing from you. I don't want to be paranoid since I don't have any reason to, right? I trust you. And I'll hold on to that even when you get back. I could think of the worst right now, but I choose not to. I don't want to be the one to mess this up, because I don't trust you or anything.. I just want to hear from you.. A simple hi would ease the pain of loneliness I'm having right now.. I really miss you. x

I press send without reading it again. I've been holding it the entire morning and I know it's the words I want to say.

"James, are you crying?" I look up and see Nick. He's wearing a brown leather jacket and black skinny jeans. I turn around and open my locker which has a mirror in it. My eyes are glossy. Was I about to cry without even noticing it? The pain must have made me numb that I don't even realize it.

I turn to face him again taking a deep breath this time.

"Nope. I'm just sleepy, s'all." I give him a faint smile. Nick knows me well too know that I'm lying, but knows that I don't want to talk about it.

He walks me to my first class sharing how his mother forgot to turn off the stove burning their food. It's not enough to take things off my mind, but at least he's there to try to make me feel comfortable.

The day went by fast. My focus wasn't totally in my class nor my teachers. I was thinking about the hundreds of reasons why Red hasn't texted me yet. I almost got in to detention for writing on my journal whilst in class. I don't know where I can pour out these emotions. It's too overwhelming for me. I check my phone every minute and by the end of the day the battery's dead.

I lay on my bed staring at my cellphone. Waiting for it to vibrate and for Red's name to pop up. I don't want to sleep feeling pain again. It haunts me even in my sleep.

[RED's POV]

"Red.. I told my mom.. I told her that I think I'm in love with you.." My heart sinks breaking in to a thousand pieces. This is why my mom had a change of heart. She's the reason behind this scheme? She's the reason why I'm being forbidden to even see James again? I knew that my mom will fight for what James and I have, but it can be worthless to her if Aya comes in the picture. My fear has finally came true. I guess the fucking movies were right. People fall in love with their best friends, but not me. I only see her as my sister. Or maybe a very close best friend. Fuck. I don't know if I should get mad at her. It's not her fault if she has feelings for me. Sometimes our hearts become blinded by love. I want to know how long she has been holding it in. I'm trapped in this ball of emotions. It's inescapable and I don't know how I can deal with it.

"Since when? How? Why me?" I keep my voice calm. I don't want to make her feel bad about her feelings.

"You're really asking me why? Red, I don't even know why! I've been holding it in after the time we kissed. And when I told myself that I'm in love with you. It's like I've been let out of a cage. The feeling was so right. I've been haunted by that feeling and as soon as I accepted that it was right, it released me from my own burden. I can't even help myself escape that horrendous fact, because I know how you really feel about me. My mom is the only one I know I could open up to. And to tell you honestly, I didn't even think that she'll tell your mom. I've been betrayed by the one I trusted most. I've been betrayed by my own heart. You can't just tell me to not love you, Red. I'm tired of lying to myself. Please spare me from this." Her cheeks are bright red and tears continuously flow out of her eyes. She's been struggling. My heart aches. She only trusts two people in her life. Her mom broke it and she was devastated about it.  I, on the other hand, am the only left on her circle of trust. If I say anything that could break it, I won't only lose a friend. I would lose someone special and dear to me. I've known her all my life and that's enough for me to choose the right decision.