3-Minute Passion (BoyxBoy)

Chapter 34

So much feels for this chapter. :(

We often find ourselves trap in our own thoughts. Either we are wondering about making the right decision or we are weighing in the pain. I've been trap in my own thoughts for a week now. I told Ian and Nicole about what happened with me and Red. They've been pretty supportive and we often hang out just to try and divert my mind off of Red. It helps, but when I get home and ponder on my bed. Red keeps popping in my head, which is why I'm taking sleeping pills right now. I've managed to snatch some at my parents house when I brought my grandmother there for a visit. It helps me with my sleep, but forgetting Red doesn't. Nick eventually caught up with the news after a couple of days. He's been pretty psyched when I'm around him and I can't help but smile every time. He asked me to go with him at prom, but I rejected his offer. I didn't feel like going there, not because Red and Aya will be there, but because I really don't want to. They kept on pushing me that it's one of the most memorable moments in high school, but the idea doesn't thrill me that much. Speaking of Red and Aya, I've been a ninja avoiding them. Every time I see them, I always turn the other way even if I'm at a dead end. They've been hanging out awfully a lot together. And Red doesn't seem to share the same agonizing pain I'm feeling. I always catch them laughing or joking at each other. Nicole and I don't do such things, because we still know the boundary of what a best friend is. But I guess by now I should stop labeling them as best friends, since it's clear that it's more than that right now.

"Are you sure you don't want to go? Your mother bought you a fine suit... You don't want it to go to waste, do you?" Nicole and Ian took the pleasure of dropping by the house to try and talk me to go to the prom. She's wearing a pink ruffle dress and Ian looks fine with his all white suit and a pink bow tie. They make the perfect couple if you ask me. My mother bought me a black slim fit suit that would match with the black button down shirt I bought then. I lean my head on the door frame. Nicole is pouting, she's using my weakness. "I'll think about it.. You can go ahead.. You don't want to be late.." I give her a small smile. I don't have anything good to do and graduation is a few months away. I've done most of my home works for the next couple of days. I'm already ahead so there's literally nothing good to do. I've watched all the movies I have and I'm not in the mood in watching anyway. She squeals and hugs me. The glitter on her shoulder brushes on my shirt making me groan in annoyance.

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I've been staring at my black suit and fancy dress pants for a couple of minutes already. I'm still fighting the urge of going. Am I ready to see Red dance with Aya? This is the only thing that bothers me and I'm curious what the answer is. This is by far the longest time we haven't spoken to each other. It doesn't seem to bother him, so why should I be? I'm not a coward. I won't give in to this game, and I'm tired of playing the weak one. I want him to see me as a different person. I want him to know that I'm beyond over him. I'm ready to face him.

It didn't take me a lot of time to prepare. I took a shower even before Nicole and Ian dropped by. I'm already an hour late, but I don't really mind. I look over the mirror one last time. I've put a little eyeliner to bring out my eyes. I brushed my hair slick back and put a small amount of gel to keep it that way. The prom's at Little Brook Meadows. It's not far from my house, so I wouldn't take that long to get there. It's actually the perfect place to have a wedding, but a prom would do the same justice. It's a 50 acre area with a barn for large events, specifically receptions and for prom too.

Before I know it, I'm parking at the lot and there are literally hundreds of cars and I have to park at the farthest spot from the barn. Some of my classmates who I barely recognized are smoking what I think is pot just outside. Maybe I should try it and maybe it could help me have more confidence. I push the thought back and I give my ticket, the ticket that Nick gave me even though I turned down his offer to come with him, to Sylvia, she's a sophomore and part of the student council too. My heart's racing as I step inside. The scene's not different from our Halloween Ball, minus the costumes of course. Most of the guys are wearing black suits with white shirts. I'm pretty thankful that I'm wearing something a little different. Even with the loud booming music from the band playing at the other side of the barn, I'm appalled by how gorgeous and elegant the place is. It's my first time here and I've only seen this from pictures on the internet. There are white lanterns, tulle with yellow lights, the floor's cemented and rustic barn walls. I don't even feel like I'm inside a barn. This is the perfect place for a prom without a doubt. I instantly see Nick and Nicole at one of the tables. The music stops and the sweaty teenagers clear the area. Some still stay at the dance floor, I think they're waiting for the music to play again. Nick's eyes widen as he rakes down my body. Nicole notices Nick's reaction and turn to look at me. She grins widely and stands to hug me.