Complicated// B.E.

fourteen

  Billie didn't show up to class the rest of the day.

I even tried as hard as I could to avoid everyone, even Ivy. I just didn't feel like talking, or doing anything really besides going home to my bed and falling asleep for a couple years.

Even though Billie and I weren't technically in a relationship or 'dating', it still felt like I just broke up with my girlfriend of 5 years. Because not only did we lose whatever we had for a couple weeks, I'm pretty sure we also lost the years long friendship that we had. And it sucks.

So now here I am, in my comfy bed, shutting everyone out including my family. The only person I will speak to at the moment is Oliver. Oliver is at the point to where his legs are starting to not work as well as they once did so he isn't able to get up on my bed to snuggle with me, so he is comforting me from a distance. On the floor, next to my bed.

He can definitely tell that something is up with me. That is one thing I love about him. Even when one doesn't show that they are sad, he always seems to know.

"Ollie baby" I call his name out which makes him perk up. "I need to talk to you about something." I decided to get up from my bed, but still carry my blanket with me, to lay on the floor with him so I could talk to him.

"You know Billie, right?" And he perked up again and looked an me with an anticipated look. Oliver loves Billie, they are actual best friends.

"Yeah! of course you do!" I laughed. "She's our best friend isn't she"

"Well...me and her...we were kinda more than best friends. And I feel like I screwed everything up. I told her that I didn't wanna be 'more than friends' or whatever we had anymore, and I'm pretty sure that not only did it screw up whatever we had but it also screwed up our friendship. Meaning you also just lost your best friend. And I am very very sorry Oliver." I know he doesn't understand really but I feel bad that I even ruined my dogs friendship with his best friend. He still has me though.

I continued to rant to him, even breaking down into tears; to which he licked away sweetly. He really is one of the sweetest dogs, even though he doesn't really get along with strangers very well.

I was so caught up in the moment that I didn't even hear the footsteps near my door or the sound of the door opening.

"Lorelei! why are you crying?" I jumped as my mom asked.

"I'm not crying. Everything is fine! I'm just cuddling with Oliver because he's comfy." I quickly said.

"But your eyes are red and you have tears running down your face and your cheeks are also very puffy. You have been crying." she said sternly.

"No I swear I haven't. Just very tired! I had a very long day full of tests."

"Lorelei, I am your mom and I can tell when you are lying. What's wrong?"

I let out a quiet sigh as I really didn't want to talk about this. "Just a fight with Billie. That's all" Not really a lie because that is exactly what happened. I just can't tell her the full story.

"What was the fight about?" she calmly asked.

I really was hoping she would just be like 'oh I'm sorry, I hope you guys can make up soon.' and then leave because I don't even know what I am going to say to her.

"It was just over something small. She likes someone that also likes her back, but this 'relationship' that she has with them is kind of ruining the friendships that she already has. So I just told her to be careful and that she needs to think about what's going to happen to her friendships." I was just pulling that out of my ass trying to make it sound believable and going with it.

"Oh. Relationships are hard, and they can definitely get in the way of friendships. It's a good thing that you let her know how you feel though. It lets her know that you're an honest true friend. She will come around and you guys will make up. I promise you." She said reassuringly. Even though it didn't really help it still kind of felt like it did.

She finally left after awhile and I stopped crying. I ate dinner and finally got out of bed and did homework and other things to stay productive. I did peek at my phone a couple of times to see if maybe, just maybe, Billie would have texted me. I had a few from Ivy asking if everything was okay but, I didn't feel obligated to answer those.

I know that this is probably ruining Ivy and I's friendship by blocking her out but, I don't really feel like talking to her right now.

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This chapter isn't edited because I didn't really feel like it lol. I wanted to get another chapter out because I am not so sure when another one will be coming. With school staring back up very soon for me I am just very stressed out and am literally blocking everything out lmao.

But! I will try to get another one out before school starts but just give some me time <3

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-J