Star Crossed Lovers (TAELICE)

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"I think we should do couples therapy" I say to taehyung who is sitting across from me in my house, after an entire night of having sex. "we're not a couple" he simply says sipping on his coffee "so why did we have sex"? I say to him practically begging at this point "you don't need to be in love to have sex" he says in a cold tone shutting me out

"i'm sorry, I didn't mean what I said that day I was just frustrated" I say to him calmly "I thinking of asking this girl i'm talking to to be my girlfriend" he says cutting me off, i stopped and once again felt my heart sink to my stomach, looking at him in the eye I respond to him "you should do that" he nods and continued drinking his coffee.

My brain was running laps, trying to figure out if he's being serious or if he's just trying to hurt me at this point and who's this girl?! I thought trying to wrap my brain around what he had said "I'll see you around" he says heading to the door, I watch him leave.

Here I am, sitting in a chair across from a therapist. After telling her about everything that went on, about the incident, the nightmares and constant anxiety attacks I face everyday all because of that stalker and even about Taehyung cause Lord knows I needed advice on that, she took a deep breath.

Doing the best she could, she talked me through exercises I could do if I was having an anxiety attack, talked to me about everything and listened to me on everything but she never talked about taehyung, which is the reason i'm really here for, i've gotten enough therapy for the incident to the point where talking about it does no good.

"Any advice about tae..." I begin to speak and she cuts me off, she smiles gently and looked in my eyes

"you went through something traumatic with him, you may love him but maybe your love was affected by it. whenever you see him you probably think about him being held at gunpoint and that terrifies you. You probably started hating him for always being around you when you thought he could be in danger because of you, so you tried pushing him away. But if you love him, it's another obstacle you'd have to cross. Love can't always be smooth sailing, but it's not your fault that happened to you and him." She stops talking and closes her notebook

I take in her words, every letter, understanding and trying to think about what can be done.

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"That was soooo fun!" I said entering my room with my hair dresser behind me "you have dinner with heidi and the boys right?" she asks "Yea I said responding and downing a can of hangover drink.

The Celine after party was quite interesting, I never thought I'd see tae on a strip pole. I laughed just thinking about it

I quickly washed up and headed out to dinner with bogum oppa, we met heidi & tae in the restaurant, everyone took a seat and I could tell we were all drunk. For a slight moment I glanced at tae "he seems tired" I thought to myself looking away, we ordered our food.
Later we get dropped off at the hotel and we all walk our separate ways heading to our hotel rooms "tae" I said getting his attention before he could enter his room, he turned to look at me "are you okay? You seem tired" I looked at him and he smiles at me throwing me off guard "I'm okay" he whispers and goes into his room "weird" I thought to myself as he entered I saw a hand pull him in, but... "is that my bracelet"? I say out loud recognizing a bracelet tae had gotten me when we were just trainees. Letting the thought leave my mind, I walk into my hotel room. 

The next morning we departed from Paris and headed back to Korea. On the plane back I kept over hearing bogum and taehyung's conversation about I assume his new girlfriend, but trying to stay cool and collected I ignore them.