(ON HOLD) BEFORE I MET HIM

Chapter 19(A talk with Freya-1)

"Spill the milk, girl," I said looking at a smiling Freya.

"Well, my baby drove me to the supermarket," she said arranging the foodstuffs into the cupboard.

"Your baby?" I asked feeling confused.

"Addi," she said rolling her eyes at me.

"Ohh, when did you guys start being together," I asked her sitting on the cabinet.

"Is it until we started dating that will make me call him my baby?" She asked dusting off the dirt on her clothes.

" How will I know, you shouldn't say that to a novice," I told her.

"Oh, true. I forgot you haven't dated" she said giving me another apple again.

"You bought a lot?" I asked her

"Yea, you want more?" She asked me.

"Yeah, I love apples"

"Okay girl, here you go," she said giving me two more apples.

"Thanks, "I told her.

There was silence in the kitchen as we sit down eating the apples drowning in our thoughts.

I have a lot to ask her, I want to ask her how she came here, why is she free from me, and she even has the opportunity to even live a little of her life that's if she has a big dream.

I looked at her as she was browsing through her phone, I forgot she has a phone. I need to ask a lot.

"Freya, the last time we talked, it was about me, that I told you how I met Xander and how I came here," I said.

She nodded. " I don't know about you, how you got this freedom to be able to do things you want to and that, I couldn't ask the other time due to Addi's interruption," I said.

She sighed, washed her hand, and then told me we should go outside the kitchen to her room.

I have been in her room once that was yesterday when I was reading the storybook she gave me.

She sat down on the bed and I did also, she told me not to interrupt her until she is done. I nodded.

She started "Well, my story is heartbreaking also. I just created a life for myself.

I was brought in here two years ago, in exchange for what my papa and the king brothers had to deal with it. Then Xavier was the lead, I don't what happened to him that made Xander take over. My papa made a deal with the King brothers and used me in exchange when he couldn't provide the money.

I was 22 at that time, I just got out of college and my life became like a shadow, my dreams, and everything went down. My papa always makes bets with dangerous people and my mum will be the one to pay back till one of the drug lords took her away, she killed herself due to frustration and depression according to what my papa told me and that's about mom.

My dad continued his life as a drug dealer, he is cunny and dirty but I never knew he would use me as an exchange. I understand the rules of the drug world as I grew up in it. My mum does tell me whenever I am 20 I should run away because my dad will use me one day in exchange for drugs, but when I was 20 I thought I am grown up already I was in college. I don't think he could do that to me, I loved my papa so much that I don't want to leave him. But, he doesn't want me and decides to sell me out.

All I could pray for was not to turn into Xavier and Xander's sex slave. I was tortured severely day and night as punishment for what my papa did. I respect the king brothers because other drug lords would have used me as a sex toy, slave, or sell me out to get their money. They asked me what I intend on doing here, I offered to be a cook and to make sure the house is clean. I guess that's what saved me from them not killing me or selling me out.

So I started being a cook, I decided to be happy and live this life I am in, I didn't try escaping or killing myself I was just me. I enjoyed cooking for the guys and taking care of the house, it was hectic for me at first but I got used to it. I made the king brothers believe I am comfortable here and you know harmless.

I tried escaping at first, but I also reason that I have been sold out, since these people here do not have any intentions of harming then I should behave.

I  always make sure there's a smile on my face, until one day Xavier and I talked one on one, he asked me what are my dreams, my story. I told him everything. He said he isn't ruthless but he won't take my life away from me completely as I am not at fault for having a bastard as a father.

He gave me a little freedom, he bought a phone for me but it's tracked everything I do on the phone is monitored by some inner cyber man I haven't seen in this house before, I became happy at least.

They bought clothes for me and what I need as I keep satisfying them also, by cooking their food.

During those times, Addi is originally Xavier's left-hand man, as Xander was Xavier's right-hand man, but when Xavier transferred everything to Xander, Addi became Xander's, right-hand man.
Addi and I became close one day when I was going to the supermarket to get what we need at home, so Addi chose to escort me. I just suddenly grew this connection with him, I became comfortable with him and we do play, he is the one I talk to freely in this house then.

I started having feelings for him some months later, I shove it off, it shouldn't be that way and I am sure Xavier and Xander would be very mad at him, so I did not want to put him into trouble.

I kept my feelings to myself, we became close as a friend and there was it he avoided me and it was because Xavier told him to be focused. Xavier was ruthless, he just suddenly have this behavior that surprised everyone. He gets angry easily and the next minute he is smiling, there was this time I thought Xavier is jealous of Addi and me, maybe he likes me, but Addi made it known to me he doesn't, and his behavior is due to some changes that happened to him and he can't tell me.

So I kept everything neutral, there's this period Xander and Xavier went for business meetings using months there to sort out some things. I missed him the more and instead the feelings I have for him should be reduced, they increased the more.

When he came back, I took the bold steps of letting him know I like him, he was speechless and you know he ignored me.

I felt embarrassed and I kept nagging him, I didn't give up on him, I seduced him several times and we had sex twice that last year and I became more addicted to him.

Another sweet reason, for loving him the more is I am into younger guys.

I am two years older than him, he is 22 and I am 24.

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