Once Bitten, Twice Destroyed [COMPLETE]

• CHAPTER THIRTY •

Paige

I wonder if Luciano and Dario are looking for me. I wonder if my dad is still alive. I wonder if Kenny still lives at our house, I hope he's okay. 

I sat down on Viktor's lap and his hands wrapped around my waist. I rested my back against his chest before staring at the ceiling.

"Do you trust me?" I asked him and he was silent for a while.

"Of course I do. I care about you." He said and I smiled softly.

"Do you know if my dad's okay?" I asked carefully and he was silent again.

"Your dad is doing good. We keep a close eye on him." He said and I sighed in relief.

"What about- Dario and Luciano?" I asked before gulping.

"What about them?" He asked before sitting upright.

"Are they okay?" I asked before standing up and he flared his nostrils.

"How should I know?" He asked and I frowned at his sudden change in mood.

"Are they even looking for me? You can't keep me here forever Viktor. I'm not a prisoner, that's not how this works." I said and he frowned at me.

"This?" He asked and I nodded.

"Us." I said in frustration. "I am looking past all of your mistakes right now and I'm choosing not to run. I'll stay but you can't keep me locked up." I said and he glared at me.

"I can't let anything happen to you. If I have to lock you up to prevent you from getting hurt than this is how this works. Us." He said with a scoff and I frowned at him.

"How can you say that?" I asked and he licked his lips.

"This isn't negotiable Paige." He said harshly and I bit on my tongue.

"I know you want to protect me Viktor but this is not it. You're all I want why would I risk losing you?" I asked and he shook his head.

"Your mind games won't work on me. My word is final." He said harshly. He gently took my hand into his before placing it against his chest. As I felt the rhythm of his heart I looked up into his sapphire eyes.

"Let me protect you." He said and I closed my eyes before shaking my head.

"Is this your way of loving me?" I asked and he frowned at me.

"Love?" He asked and I nodded. "Love doesn't exist." He said bluntly and I froze in my spot. My hand dropped from his chest and I ran out of words. All I could do was replay that phrase in my head.

"Love exists." I said and he shook his head.

"It's just a word, Paige. It's made up, by people that'll eventually hurt you or stab you in the back." He said and I nodded.

"You've been hurt but that doesn't mean-"

"I'm done having this conversation. My word is final." He said before leaving his study. He still didn't answer my question.

I still don't know if Dario and Luciano is looking for me.

I need them to look for me. Somehow it will prove that what we had was real. I've never felt this much guilt in my life.

I slept with Viktor, their enemy while they were probably worried sick about me. I just need them to come and get me.

I can't risk getting attached to Viktor or falling in love with him. It's clear that he doesn't love anyone and he probably never will. 

He's so confusing. First he's upset, then he's gentle. Then he's upset again! Why can't I understand him, why is he so difficult to read?

What I do know is that I had something special with Luciano and Dario and I have to fight for something that was real. Something that I understood.

What Viktor and I did was probably just a mistake. Maybe the best mistake I've ever made.

Who's more confusing? Paige or Viktor?😄