Meant to be / Eddie Munson

Chapter TwentyTwo : Rose

Monday 7th April 1986
⚠️-talk of suicide & attempt

It's been a month since Ellie was born and honestly things weren't looking good and Eddie wasn't really around every time he was Rose would come and make things worse so Eddie would have to leave with her, honestly it seemed she was out to ruin things for us, especially now I needed him the most.

Steve was always with me, we had grown really close in the last few weeks, I could even say I love him. He was always there to comfort me and would go get us food and take a break when Eddie was here but he'd always be back within a an hour and see me by myself. Every hospital visit Eddie would come for an hour before Rose would kick off and I would be sat there alone with Ellie for a few minutes until Steve would show up.

I don't see why Eddie kept choosing Rose over us, I may not be anything to him anymore but that's his daughter. I would sit and look at Ellie everyday wishing things went better. I've been trying to get the courage to talk to Eddie about adoption but Rose kicks off before I can, so I just went ahead and made the appointments. It might be the hardest thing I have to do but she needs parents who can be there for her always and take care of her, she is gentle and precious and deserves the world.

The meeting was today at 3pm, I invited Eddie but as usually Rose.

We went ahead with everything and all we need is Eddie's consent and we're good to go.

I kept calling Eddie but there was no answer I gave up and just went to bed it was 10pm and I was exhausted. I climbed into bed and fell asleep dreaming of Ellie and Eddie the family we should of had.

*little time skip*

I woke up to Dustin opening my door "hey y/n?" He spoke softly "yeah dusty?" I responded. "Someone's here to see you" he sighed, I looked at my clock it was 2am "who?" I mumbled still tired... "me" hearing that voice made my heart sink. I looked up and sure as shit it was Eddie.

"No climbing through my window this time Munson?" I laughed. "I'm sorry I've been avoiding you" he stepped into the room shutting the door as Dustin went back to bed. "It's fine I don't care if you avoid me, but it's not fair on Ellie she needs both parents" I sighed, knowing this might be the only time I get to tell him about the adoption.

Before I could even speak "I know about the adoption, Dustin told me" he sighed taking his jackets off and climbing into bed with me. "Rose has been on my case to do it and I really don't want to" he spoke softly as he pulled me into his chest.

"She needs a proper family though Eddie, one that will be there and provide for her. One that have both parents that will actually stay more then an hour every day" my tears started falling down my cheeks.
"I want to be the dad she deserves and I want to be the man you deserve" he mumbled which made me look at him. "The man I deserve? When have you not been the man I deserved? You're the only person stopping yourself from being with me. Every time we get good you choose another girl and it's killing me every time" I cry into his chest.

"I know I'm sorry, I let them get into my head" his voice started cracking trying to hold back the tears. "Our daughter is a month old and you've seen her what? 5 times." I carried on crying. "I'm so sorry
y/n" his voice started to get shaky. "I needed you these last few weeks and you've been hooking up with rose" I pushed myself off him and sat up.

"You chose Rose over our child the day you stopped visiting" I snapped, which he did not like.
"Oh don't act all high and mighty y/n you've been hooking up with Steve" he scoffed. With that sentence I smacked him straight across the face "how DARE you! He's been helping me through this hard time because YOU HAVE NOT" I snapped at him again. He looked at me stunned I smacked him. "Again Eddie! I have only slept with YOU! I've never slept with anyone else!" I added going to get off the bed when he grabbed my wrist. "You don't get to be the one that walks away this time Eddie! It's my turn! I can't do this anymore I- I- I want to die" I finally let out all my emotions. He let go of my wrists and stared at me.

"I want to die Eddie, every day I see you choosing rose I want to die, every day I watch our baby girl suffer and I can't even stay with her at night I want to die. I feel like taking my own life when our daughter dies because I can't pay for the help she needs alone! At least I'll be able to stay with her" I screamed at him crying my eyes out.

"Y/n I want you... I've always wanted you." He sighed standing up to hold me. I hit his chest repeatedly in anger and he let me. "Don't lie to me Eddie" I sobbed into his chest once again.

"I'm not lying, I will break it off with Rose and I will be with you I promise" he sighs holding me tighter.
"If you dare break this promise Edward I will take Ellie over to London and back to my dad. I will protect her but he's got the money to pay for her support." I cried, Eddie kissed my forehead and we got into bed and cried to sleep.

*next day Tuesday 8th April 1986*

I woke up to yelling downstairs, it was 10am so mum was at work and Dustin had time off school for Easter holidays, I walked into my bathroom and took out my anti depressants and just took the whole bottle, I walked downstairs to see Dustin just sat with his head in his hands clearly he's being ignored and Steve & Eddie screaming at each other. I walked over to Dustin and sat next to him laying my head on his shoulder I wasn't going to stop their arguing, I didn't have the energy.

Steve looked over and noticed me and stopped yelling. Eddie looked to see what Steve was looking at and see me. "Shit" he mumbled "shit indeed" Dustin sighed as I closed my eyes humming whilst the pills started to have an effect on me.

"Y/n" Steve sighed as he came over to talk to me but at this point I was comatose. I was still there but I couldn't move or do or say anything. "Y/n?" Eddie said louder walking over to me. "Y/n?" Dustin said.
"We need to take her to the hospital now" Eddie yelled at Steve they both carried me to the car and I had my head in Eddie's lap, I could still feel his hands stroking my hair as he was telling me I'll be okay.... But will I?

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