Facing My Demons (Devil's Right Hand MC #1)

Chapter 15

Wolf's POV

I reacted horribly with Clove, I know I did. When she stormed out, I really wanted to follow her but I knew that nothing I said or did could make this any better. She was right. I fucked up.

The problem is, while I was betraying her trust, I didn't see it that way. In my mind, I was just protecting her and following the club rules. Never once did it occur to me how it could seem to her, that I told everyone things she trusted me with. How fucking sick is that?

I hear a knock at the door and then Blade walks in with a knowing look on his face, but Skillet tries to follow behind him.

"Man you must've really fucked up. I have never heard a woman scream at her man like that before, not even Grace," Skillet laughs but I am not finding anything funny because he's right. Clove feels everything so quickly and so deeply and I knew this before I lied to her.

"Skillet shut your goddamn mouth. Wolf and I have to talk," Blade seethes and Skillet just nods his head and leaves. I love Skillet, I am the one that vouched for him to become a prospect and he is set to be patched very soon, but he needs to learn to shut his fucking mouth.

"She is down in the kitchen with Grace. At least she hasn't left the clubhouse yet," Blade tries to reassure me but I am not sure it is working.

"Is Grace trying to talk her down or is she hyping her up?"

"Well, that is to be determined, but we both fucked up, I realize that now. It was never fair to you that I expected to know things your girl told you in private. I just got a little too protective with Sis."

"You and me both," I mumble.

The rest of my conversation with Blade is a blur as he tries to reassure me but then just leads into small talk. I know he feels guilty too but he shouldn't, she is my girl, it is my job to protect her and put her first. I clearly failed at that.

It's only 7 am but I need a drink. No fuck that, I need a whole bottle. Just as I am about to make my way to the bar and down whatever I can get my hands on, the door to my room flies open again and there she stands. 

I think I am hallucinating at first until I see the shocked expression on Blade's face as well. She looks like she has been crying and I feel another pang of guilt as I know I am the one that caused the tears to fall.

"We need to talk," she says to me and my heart drops. Is she going to end it with me? Or maybe, just maybe she wants to work it out?

"I'll give you two some time," Blade says as he begins to walk out of the room but she stops him.

"Oh no, you don't. We need an understanding before Wolf and I try to find one," she says as she grabs his arm to stop him from leaving.

"What kind of understanding is that?"

"This is about me and I think both you and Wolf have forgotten that. This isn't about Jesse or some need to protect all women. This whole thing started because of me so I think it's only fair I know what the fuck is going on. I'm not asking to know specific club business, but I am asking that anything you find about Jesse, especially if it pertains to what he did to me, you share it with me." She actually seems reasonable right now which is not remotely close to what I expected.

"I think that's fair, Sis," Blade says shaking her hand in an official business manner, "I can show you all we have found so far as soon as you're ready."

"Oh don't worry. If Wolf ever wants to see me again he's about to tell me everything."

"Well good luck with that, brother," Blade laughs as he walks out and closes the door.