a whole new love/ a whole new person

Chapter 11: I'm sorry

It was past 10 p.m., Ron was hanging out alone in the halls of Hogwarts while Hermione walked through the threshold of her Slytherin's room:

"He has the right to put his hands on your body He has the right to breathe your scentHe even gets stares that make him strongerPut the warmth of your voice in my heartDraco gently placed Hermione on the bed and began to strip Hermione of her blouse. Ron continued to wander the corridors:"And it hurts, believe me, a blade driven deep into my soulLook inside yourself, not even the shadow of a tearAnd I still bleed, I smile to deathAll this red on my bodyI hurt you in a last effort"Draco and Hermione continued to undress in a hurry as the Boy Who Lived's best friend slid down a stone wall. His heart ached terribly:"He likes to caress your face when you fall asleepAnd you allow yourself to say again againI know what doesn't kill us makes us strongerBut me, but me, I'm already dead"Hermione moaned when Draco entered her. Ron felt like his heart was being ripped out. He wanted her but couldn't have her:"It hurts, believe me, a blade driven deep into my soulLook inside yourself, not even the shadow of a tearAnd I still bleed, I smile to deathAll this red on my bodyI hurt you in a last effort"Then the young redhead made a decision. He needed Hermione, that was for sure. But he could be close to her while remaining her friend:"But I still bleed, I smile to deathBut I'm still bleedingAll this red on my body"Luna was pretty good even if she was a little weird but hey:"But I still bleed, I smile to deathBut I'm still bleedingAll this red on my body"Hermione didn't like him. She's in love with Malfoy whether he likes it or not. Yes, tomorrow he will make advances to Luna:"But I still bleed, I smile to deathBut I'm still bleedingAll this red on my body"Ron got up and walked towards the Gryffindor dormitory while Draco collapsed, sweating, his cheeks rosy from the effort on Hermione, sweating too.Draco fell asleep immediately but Hermione couldn't sleep. All day, she had endured the mean stares of the other Hogwarts students when she walked around with Draco. Apparently they didn't want to see her with the Prince of Slytherin. On the one hand, it was understandable, with all the filth he had done to everyone, the boys didn't like him very much but the girls looked at her badly but more out of jealousy. How did the know-it-all bookworm get Draco Malfoy when he normally dumped all the girls after he finished what he had to do with it?And as the days went by, Hermione could bear less and less the gaze of others.The next day, when Draco and Hermione went to the Great Hall, they saw Mrs. Malfoy and Mrs. Weasley at the top of the marble steps. Molly at the top of the left stairs and Narcissa at the top of the right stairs. Ron, Ginny and Harry joined Hermione in throwing hostile glances at Draco then Ginny, Ron and Draco exclaimed at the same time:"  Mom ?!! »All the students were gathered at the bottom of the steps when Molly began to sing:

"All-Seeing GodLook at usLook at you "She waved her hand to show everyone at the bottom of the stairs:"In our homesFlows a poisonwho has a nameHatredHatredLike a serpent in your soulsHatredHatredWho makes you judges but condemns youHatredHatredI see it burning in your eyesHatredHatredthat makes you miserableI hate hate"Molly stopped and looked at her children sternly:"I confess to youI do for youWhat disgust »She turned to Molly to make her understand that these words were intended for her:"Why do you have toThat in this schoolWe love so muchHatredHatredIn the name of the father, in the name of the sonHatredHatredWho makes us your accomplices- HatredHatredIt's the courage that cowards lackHatredHatredThe sister of love but that we hide »They turned again to the students:"I curse youFor all those nightsTo hear youWithout understanding youYou even forget the funThe only thing that matters is to hate- Look at youShe chains youThis fucking hateWho takes everything from youlook at youyou are nothingWhat puppetsIn his hands »They turned to each other:"How can we do in his nameNumber of crimes and victims- Hate, it comes to mow in your souls- So listen to the voice of women"Molly and Narcissa descended the steps. Molly, short, plump in her old orange dress and Narcissa, tall, slender and graceful in her witch dress went to hug their respective children. Molly hugged Ron, Ginny, Harry, Hermione and Fred and George who had joined them along the way and Narcissa hugged Draco and surprisingly Hermione. They had come to see Dumbledore to talk about bringing the 4 houses together. In this case, plus those of Slytherin and Gryffindor. They finished their hugs and went back home.But for Hermione, it was getting harder and harder. The more the days passed, the more the looks of the others were mean. She couldn't stand them anymore. Draco didn't seem to bother him in the least.On December 15, Hermione broke down. She was going to join Draco in his room when a gang of Slytherin girls stopped her, led by Pansy Parkinson:"What did you do to him??! Parkinson asked her nastily.- Whose ? Hermione asked him in the same tone.- To my love Dragounet?- I didn't do anything to her!- Whether ! I'm sure you made him drink a love filter!- What next ?- Yes, you have to! It's me he loves!- Don't take your dreams for realities Parkinson! »Pansy saw red and waved her wand at Hermione. But this one was faster and as soon as Pansy had brandished her wand at her she found herself stunned.Pansy's friends screamed in terror and fled leaving Pansy in the middle of the hallway. But it was the final straw that made the cauldron overflow.When Draco saw Hermione enter the room, she was in tears. He rushed towards her and took her in his arms."Hey, hush. Why are you crying baby?- I'm sorry Draco but it's not possible, Hermione sobbed against the Slytherin's shoulder.- What is more possible?- Both of us, she said, pulling away from him and looking him in the eyes.- What ? Yes, it's possible, Draco started to panic.- No, it's not possible anymore- You're still not going to leave me! I need you, me!- I know, me too! But I'm fed up!- No, don't leave me, please » Draco begged, hugging her tightly.Hermione pulled away from him, brought her face closer to his and kissed him softly. Draco answered it with all his desperation. Hermione removed her lips from the Green and Silver's and said to him again, tears rolling down her cheeks:

"  I am really sorry

I gotta say what's on my mindsomething about usdoesn't seem right these dayslife keeps getting in the wayWhenever we try, somehow the planis always rearrangedIt's so hard to sayBut I've gotta do what's best for meYou'll be ok..."She took Draco's hands in hers and continued to stare at him."I've gone to move on and be who I amI just don't belong hereI hope you understandWe might find our place in thisworld somedayBut at least for nowI gotta go my own way (own way)"She crosses the threshold of the room leaving a completely distraught Draco in the room. She walked through the corridors:"Don't wanna leave it all behindBut I get my hopes upand I watch them fall everytimeAnother color turns to grayand it's just too hard to watch it allslowly fade awayI'm leaving today 'cause I'vegotta do what's best for meyou'll be ok.."She went out into the park:"I've got to move on and be who I amI just don't belong hereI hope you understandWe might find our place in thisworld somedayBut at least for nowI gotta go my own way"She was walking towards the lake when Draco called her and ran after her:"What about us?What about everything we've been through? »Hermione looked at him, tears still streaming down her cheeks rosy from the December cold."What about trust?- You know I never wanted to hurt you- And what about me?- What am I supposed to do?- I gotta leave but- I'll miss you"Hermione cupped his face in her hands and rested her forehead against his. He had tears in his eyes. He needed her terribly and if she left him, he would be nothing:"SoI've got to move on and be who I am-Why do you have to go?- I just don't belong hereI hope you understand"Hermione walked past him and began to walk back to the castle."I'm trying to understand- We might find our place in thisworld somedaybut at least for now"But Draco held her by the arm and hugged her:"I want you to stay- I wanna go my own wayI've got to move on and be who I am"But Hermione wriggled out of his embrace again and saw a tear rolling down her cheek."What about us?- I just don't belong hereI hope you understand- I'm trying to understand- We might find our place in thisworld somedaybut at least for nowI gotta go my own wayI gotta go my own wayI gotta go my own way"She wiped away her tear and fled back to the castle, turning one last time to look at him and disappearing behind the Great Wooden Door.