Saving Kate

"Kiss."

TYLERS POV:

I don't know what to do.

Her dads getting worse, and she's trying to look like it doesn't faze her but I know better.

We're at her house watching Dex, and she has to tell him soon. He's catching on to our lie. It might be too late for Dex to say goodbye if she doesn't tell him. God how is this happening to them? How is she going to go to college and be here for him? What is going to happen when they have to pull the plug?

For the first time since this morning Dex went to his room, and the second he did I turn to look at Kate and I could see her shoulder just slump down and lay back on the couch obviously frustrated with the situation.

She looks like hell. Her hair is oily and her eyes are baggy. I think she hasn't picked up makeup in like 4 days and she's been wearing that rolling stones shirt thats two sizes too big. It's her dads.

That fake smile she has had plastered on her face since this morning finally came off and for the first time since this past week looks like the situation is killing her. And that look kills me.

No matter how bad she looks or how fake that smile is, she still makes me want to try this out for the long run. Because I know she's worth it.

"Oh gosh, Tyler what am I going to do?", she ask while running her hand down her hair.

"Live and be there for her brother when he finds out. Oh yeah and tell him before it's too late."

"Yeah, because it's that easy."

"I know it's not but I'm here. I'm not going to leave."

For a while she just looks down and finally says,"Why are you by the way? I mean I get that you want to be friends, but this is way more than just a friend can handle. It's not that I don't appreciate it, but why? Just why?"

How do I respond to that? Then before I even decided to say it I say,"Well maybe I decided I don't want to be just friends."

Oh shit.

"What?"

Well here goes nothing.

"I don't know Kate it's just that when I'm around you I don't think like I normally do when I see an attractive girl. I don't wonder what color your underwear is or if you want to sleep with me. I want to know you and I've never wanted to do that. You're different Kate. So different. But it's the different I've wanted, but could never find. Well of course 'til now."

After she kinda chuckles I smile then continue.

"Kate I like the way you sing like a dying cat, but you pour your heart on a piano. I like the way you miss pronounce words and get mad when I correct you. I like the way you don't treat me like a piece of meat, and I like the way you try to seem strong to make others not worry, but I know you're struggling to stay strong. Kate I like so much stuff about you and I'll probably learn to like more when I find them out. I know it's only been a few weeks, but I like you Kate. And it's freaking me out."

After I take a huge breath she just looks at me. Well might as well be even more spontaneous. As I lean in she puts a hand in between us and simply just says,"Kiss."

What the fuck?

After she notices my aggrevation and confusion she sighs and says,"Look if we're gonna try to make this work I need to know this isn't just a new method to get me in the sheets. I want everything we do to actually mean something and that's gonna take time. So, instead of actually kissing we'll just simply say "kiss" until I know this is actually what you want. Because the last thing I need right now is a heartbreak."

Wait, she wants this to work? She likes me?

Holy shit.

From excitement I hug her a little too tight and say," I promise I don't want just sex, I want you and I will prove it I swear."

Trying to breathe she replies,"I hope so, can you prove it before you kill me. I'm about to die from lack of breath."

I just let her go and just smile kinda awkwardly. Smooth Tyler smooth.

When I get a text from my dad that's my cue to head home. Kinda good timing.

As she walks me to the door she smiles and leans in. Well so much for that stupid method. Not that I'm complaining. Right before she kisses me she hurries up and changes her direction towards my ear and whispers,"kiss." a little too seductively for my liking at the moment.

I just narrow my eyes and say,"You're a hateful human being."

She just smiles and says,"One of the perks of being with me."

So I just smirk and get closer,"hmm me 'being' with you, I could get used to that."

Her breath hitches when I'm so close to her lips. I just smile and say,"Kiss." Then walk out the door like a motherfucking boss.

As I get in the car I smile and think about were we stand.

Wait, are we together or did we just talk about being together.

What the hell are we?