All this time I've been pushing the thought of us ever being together away. Of ever working out or dating or being a couple or even liking you. I didn't want anything because I know you can do so much better and that you deserve so much better. I heard that you do this with a lot of girls and I didn't want to be just another game you decided to play. I wasn't ready to commit and get hurt but who knew not being with you would hurt that much more. You cared so much and were always there no matter what. You made me feel needed and cared for and that was the first time anybody has ever made me feel wanted. All I wanted was to see you smile and be happy with someone else because I know I'm too much of a mess for you to ever do that. I really hope you're okay. I miss you a lot.
