The fact that I still can't get you off my mind kills me every night. I'm so fucking scared of being with you. I'm so scared I'm gonna screw up or hurt you or get hurt or do something wrong. I'm so scared I'm gonna fuck this up like I fuck up everything. I'm afraid of what might happen even if it doesn't. Fear is taking over my body but what terrifies me the most is not being with you. Not giving it a try. Not seeing where things go. Not taking that chance, that risk. Not having you be mine. I still smile everytime I hear your name and I never want to stop. I don't care how messy and complicated and problematic it gets I want to give it a shot. I don't want this to end in never ending wanderings of what if I did this or that. I want something to happen. I want us to happen.
