☆ trapped under ice ☆

☆ twenty one ☆

allys pov. the next day, (sunday).

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i had woke up and james wasn't in the bed next to me. i had that same heavy feeling in my chest. but i called for him.

"james" my voice cracked but surely it was loud enough for him to hear. after that i heard foot steps followed by the bedroom door opening.

"hi" he said smiling at me as he walked into the room. he walked over and sat next to me on the bed.

"so did you want to do something today?" he asked, hopefully. i thought about it, i really didn't feel up to anything but after yesterday, seeing james distraught over me i couldn't say no.

"yeah sure..." i lied. he smiled. "anything in mind" i asked seeing what i would have to prepare myself for. "up to you gorgeous" he said softly kissing my head. "can we go for a walk to the park?" i asked.

i could tell he was a bit confused even though he tried not to show it. i mean i understand why. it's not something i do a lot.

but he nodded and said "yeah of course". "okay, i'll get dressed" i said trying to get up.

he watched me sit up, i instantly had a dizzy feeling and my head and it felt like it weighed a ton. i tried to hide it. i didn't do a great job.

"you okay?" he asked with a concerned look. "yeah, im fine" i fake smiled and stood up all the way. "alright..." he said while leaving the room so i could get dressed. i mean its not like i care if he left or not but i guess he's just being nice.

i got changed into my black sweatpants and james hoodie. i know it's not a particularly nice outfit but it's comfortable and that's all i care about.

i walked into the bathroom and looked at myself. like truely looked at myself, my now small frame i was hiding with baggy clothes, my messy hair, the bags under my eyes, my bad skin, my old make up.

james noticed this and walked into the bathroom where i was standing. he wrapped his arms around me from behind. he looked at me through the mirror and said "i love you ally". he leaned down and kissed my cheek.

my eyes got glassy and i said "i love you too" trying not to cry. i turned my body to face him and kissed him. he pulled me closer. we both pulled away and i rested my head on his chest. he rested his head on top of mine.

we stayed there for a bit. just enjoying the moment. after staying like that we walked out of the house hand in hand and walked to the park that was just down the road.

we didn't talk on the way there but i was having my own conversation in my head. when we reached the park we sat down on the bench together.

he put his arm around me and i leaned into his side. "can you imagine if everything blew up right now" i said out of the blue. "that would suck" james replied. "mhm" i hummed.

it was still early but the sun had been out for awhile so it was warming up. we sat there in silence for awhile. i was drowning in my thoughts.

im not sure what james was thinking about, you usually can barely get him to shut up.

james pov.