Two Brothers (Dan and Adrian Howell FanFic)

Chapter 35- Forever

I saw Maysie yesterday. It kept me awake last night. I want to know more about her new life. So I've got myself a coffee and my notebook, pencil, and rubber. I'm on my way to the park. I pass some of my new friends and have a chat, but the only thing on my mind is that Maysie could be at the park. I'm headed straight for the roses and there she is, sitting on the bench. I wave as she sees me.

"Good morning," Maysie says very perky as she makes her way over to me.

"How are you?" I ask.

"Oh, I'm good and sorry for yesterday, it was the doctors, I just had a check up," She answered.

"Is everything alright?"

"Yeah, they said nothing was wrong,"

"That's great news," I say.

"Yeah it really is," She states with a huge smile on her face, "So what's been happening with Dan, last I heard him and Christie got married."

"Well they had twins," I say.

"What, wow," She says gobsmacked, "What are their names?"

"Bethan and Mason, they turn 3 in a couple of months," I answer.

"Wow I really have been gone a long time," She whispers under her breath. I ignore it.

"What about Phil and Rose?"

"I don't know, I haven't talked to them since William was born," She looks down.

"And Cara?"

"Same as Phil and Rose,"

"Why not?"

"I have my reasons," I don't push for more remembering what happened yesterday, "So, want to go somewhere?"

"Sure, how about a movie?"

"I would love to," She replies, "Which one?"

"I don't mind, what do you want to watch?"

"How about that new comedy with that hot actor, I can't remember his name,"

"Sure," I take her hand and walk down to road to the cinema. Although it hurt when she spoke about another guy, it felt like the ten years apart had only been a day.

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We've spent a lot of time with each other over the past summer. We have got to know each other better. She always comes over on Sundays but we talk almost every night on the phone and text almost everyday. I still think that she is hiding somethings from me, but I don't pester in fear of losing her. She will tell me when she is ready. We spend most of our time at my house. We have never been to her house, but she told me it was because it wasn't close by. I feel like she wants to see Phil. I have brought us 2 train tickets to go to Dan and Christie's place for the twins birthdays because I know Phil will be there.

I'm going to the supermarket to get some milk. It's busy as always but I know my way around. I quickly get the milk and head to the check-out. I'm paying and I look up to say thank you when I see it. Maysie walks in laughing, hand in hand with another man. A big smile on her face, she kisses him on the check. She turns her head and sees me. She gives me a smile but then loses it. Her mouth drops and looks at her hand connected to her boyfriends. I feel a deep pain within me. I leave the supermarket as fast as I can and run home.

"You IDIOT!" I yell at myself as I slam the front door shut, "Of course she has a boyfriend! What did you expect! Her to run back into your arms and love you!"

But The problem is, I did. I thought she would still love me. I was wrong. Too much time has past. She got over you and moved on. Moved on to bigger and better things.

The anger boiling up in me. Then Jack runs through and he reminds me, reminds me of the fun we had and my anger changes to sorrow.

I stand up and pick up my phone and dial a number. It rings and then is picked up.

"Adrian, long time no hear," The humour coming through the phone is immediate.

"Hey Ben," I say.

"You okay? you sound down," He asks.

"I saw her today and she was smiling and laughing. I could see in her eyes she was glad to see me. It was the exact same look she gave me when we first saw each other... she was happy... I could tell that the love was still there and I know deep down that she still wants me... but I could also see the fear, she's afraid of me... not physically but emotionally... and that's what hurts me the most... I love that girl so much that it terrifies me... I'd do anything and everything to make sure she's happy and smiling, even if she's not with me or I'm not the reason for it... my love for her is so real man, it's so strong and powerful.. she still makes my day and she doesn't even know that... when she was talking about other guys it hurt me but I had to shrug it off and act like I didn't care but I did... I still see her in my dreams... that's where she stays now... I still think of her everyday and every time I wake up and before I fall asleep... I see her everywhere... everything reminds me of her... I miss her so much man... I just wish I could hold her again... I wish I could make her feel safe and wanted again... I wish she wasn't afraid of me... I wish I could be the reason for her smile again... but I fucked that up... I shouldn't of took her for granted..." I couldn't help letting a few tears run down my cheeks.

"Adrian."

"I just lay here thinking about her every night after we get off of the phone. Thinking that we shouldn't have hung up. I could talk all day with her. We wouldn't even have to say anything to each other really. I crave her touch to the point that my body tenses up for a few seconds. I crave her in general. Everything she does is so unflawed to me. I know what I'd be like without her and I don't like it. During 99% of my daily decisions I always think how my life would be different without her. She makes me want to be a better person. She makes me want to rip my hair out when she doesn't text back after 10 seconds. She makes me feel like all I need is her in my life. She is a big part of me, who I am, and who I will become. She moulds me. She's shaped me into a person who has things to be proud of. She brings so much happiness to my life I often ask myself if I deserve it. I don't think she'll ever realise what a difference and change her heart has made on my life. I'll never get tired of her. Loving her will never get old." Someone taps my shoulder. I spin around and she's standing there. I don't know how to feel, "I'll call you back, something came up." I hung up and put the phone down.

"Loving you will never get old," She said. I couldn't help myself. I walked forward and kissed her. It had been too long. The feeling of her lips had been burried in a deep memory but all of a sudden everything came rushing back, the smells, the touch, the love. The intense fire that burned in my heart for her and only her, the only girl that I ever loved and could ever love. She is all I need.

Forever