Timid (Hawks x reader)

Confession

"I think...I might be falling in love with you"

Those words, I never thought anyone would ever say to me

"what?" I breathe out, to stunned to even say anything else

He's lying y/n

He's only saying that because he's trying to get something out of you

Just like Felix

"That's impossible" I spit out almost instantly. "You're lying"

"Huh?" Hawks stares at me confused. "Why would I lie about falling in love with you?"

"Because you feel bad for me. Just like everyone else. Well I don't need pity. I'm fine on my own"

He stands, baffled for a moment, before pinning me against the wall faster than I could blink. I look into his golden eyes, a light pink on his cheeks and he begins to speak. "Do you really think I'd be doing this if I was lying to you." He looks down at the ground for a moment, as if he was waiting for something, but before I could speak, he starts again. "From the moment we first met on the cliff all that time ago you intrigued me. I wanted to know more about you, and I was confused because I had never had such a desire to learn about someone before. Then as we got closer I started to get more excited every time I saw you, and I couldn't wait for the next time I would be able to see you or work together. When we went on that mission in Tokyo I felt so happy that even for just a little while I could pretend that you were mine, then when you were kidnapped right under my nose yesterday, I felt my blood just run cold. I freaked out when the smoke cleared and I couldn't find you. Then when you broke the earrings and your location came up on my phone I felt relief wash over me knowing that I knew where you were." He takes a deep breath. "When I saw you still in tact and nothing happened to you I couldn't help but be so glad that you were ok I couldn't help but ignore everyone else despite there being people there that actually had their quirk taken. Y/n all I thought of was you. So tell me..." He looks into my eyes, making me weak to my knees. "Do you really think all of that is a lie?"

I can't move, and I can't say anything; I don't know what to say. I lean forward into his chest, taking in his scent and feeling his heart beat faster. He wraps his arms and wings around me, running his fingers through my hair and takes a deep breath. 

"Hawks-"

"Keigo. Keigo kid" 

"....Keigo...thank you"

Maybe it's reckless to believe him, but my heart wants to believe otherwise. 

I've never seen Hawks talk like this at all. He's always so carefree and has this joking and teasing tone whenever he talks, yet when he was speaking, it's as if he was being sure he said the right things; that if he didn't he would lose it all.

Yet his words somehow melted away every doubt I had about him, about myself, and about everything

For the first time in my life, I feel genuinely at peace

~2 weeks later~

"He's coming around the corner. Be careful" Keigo speaks into the earpiece alerting me of the criminal's whereabouts 

"On it"

I jump from the staircase down to the sidewalk, keeping my eyes locked on where Hawks said the criminal would appear from. Once he's in my line of vision, I create a small explosion which triggers a chain reaction around him, stopping him dead in his tracks. He looks around, but before he can move I sweep him off his feet, successfully pinning him down and holding him as Hawks and the police appear. 

"Looks like you plan worked perfectly kid, nice job" He smiles at me, winking in the process making me laugh. 

"This was nothing. Childs play really"

"You heroes really make our job easier every day. Thanks for your help Hawks, and new official sidekick, H/n"

I smile at the officer as he takes the criminal into custody, stretching my arms and looking at the setting sun. I look toward Keigo who smirks at me. 

"What?"

"I admit you win this time"

I smirk back at him, moving closer to him. "Sorry didn't hear you, could you repeat that? Must be the loud explosions getting to me."

"You brat-"

"Hawks" A voice speaks from behind. We turn to see Endeavor, who looks as angry as usual. "Sidekick"

'Wow he doesn't even take time to learn my name'

"Hey Endeavor! What can we do for you" He says eagerly, making me sigh. "There's news on the league"

'The league...speaking of which, I haven't seen Dabi at all in the past two weeks'

"Hey kid, why don't you head back to the agency. We have the day off tomorrow so we'll go get your stuff and move you into one of the rooms in the agency in the morning."

Part of me wants to retaliate, but I know that won't be doing him any favors, so I just sigh and make my way back to the agency. Along the way, people greet me, giving me their best wishes and thanking me for my work, I can't help but smile when it happens, but deep down I feel an overwhelming guilt. 

I'm not the one keeping everyone safe. I just do the destruction part of everything.

"Little hero" A voice whispers, making my head shoot up. Dabi leans against a wall, a grin on his face as he sees me. 

"Dabi! Where have you been?" I slip into the alley with him. "I haven't seen you at all for the past two weeks"

"Forgive me little hero, I was busy."

"Busy? Busy doing what?"

He sighs, then begins talking again. "So, you've been promoted to official sidekick have you? Congrats"

I roll my eyes. "It's just a title, nothing has really changed. K-Hawks still keeps me in the dark about a lot of things" Hawks' real name almost slips out of my mouth, but I quickly switch back to his hero name. 

"So then, you happy yet?" 

"Huh? I mean yeah I guess"

"Really?" He scoffs. "Doesn't look like it based on your expression"

"But I am happy Dabi....everything I thought I wouldn't be able to have I have now."

'Everything they said in middle school is wrong, I've proved them wrong now'

"Are you sure? Personally I think you're missing something, but you're just pushing it away"

'Pushing it away?'

"Anyways" He pushes himself upright. "I best be off. Hope you find your answer soon"

Dabi disappears, leaving me by myself to wonder about the meaning of his words.

Something I'm lacking?

He has to be wrong right? 

What more could I ask for

I'm lucky enough to have made it as a hero, I'm lucky enough to have someone who cares for me, and I'm lucky enough to not be surrounded by people who make me feel like I'm worthless 

So what is it that he's talking about?