Matteo

16 | Matteo

Matteo memandang Evelynn.

"Let's go to London."

Evelynn terkelu. Dia memandang suaminya lalu mengangkat keningnya.

"London? Why suddenly? Awak pernah pergi ke sana?" "Hmm. Pernah." "I've been there too but just for three days. Jom pergi cipta memori baru di sana? Together. Beautiful memories."

Matteo tersenyum manis. Dia terus sahaja ambil telefonnya.

"I'll book right now." "But tell me first. Kenapa?" "Kenapa apa?" "Kenapa London?" "Because Im thinking about going to London since two years ago. Tapi saya tak nak pergi seorang diri."

Evelynn menggeleng.

"There's another reason right?"

Matteo terkelu. Dia memandang Evelynn lalu ia menggeleng.

"Tak ada sebab lain."

Evelynn mengangguk. Dia tersenyum sebelum ia memejamkan matanya dalam dakapan Matteo.

Matteo menarik nafas panjang. Kenapa ia masih menyembunyikan segalanya dari Evelynn? Why? Adakah dia masih takut bahawa wanita itu akan tinggalkan dia apabila mengetahui keadaannya?

"Baby.." "Hmm."

Evelynn mencelikkan matanya semula sebelum dia memandang wajah suaminya.

"Yes love?" "What if I was a bipolar patient before and.. I'm still a patient of it until now? Will you still love me? What if I have obsessive disorder before and I'm continue having it until now, will you love me? Or if I had.. depression before, will you still.. love me the same?"

Evelynn terkelu. Dia memandang Matteo lalu ia menggeleng.

"That's not your story right? Tell me, Matteo. Im listening now." "What if I suffered all this before and I'm here, in front of you."

Air mata Evelynn mengalir laju.

"Why didn't you tell me the truth then?" "What if I told you? You'll leave me? What about now? Im telling you. Awak nak pergi dari saya? Hm? Your heart changed?"

Evelynn terkelu. Dia mengusap kedua dua pipi Matteo.

"What are you talking about? Changing my heart is like burning me alive. Stop loving you is one of my nightmare. And it'll kill half of me."

"Saya takkan berhenti cintakan awak kerana apa yang awak pernah lalui. Saya tahu, ia buat awak sekuat awak yang sekarang. Whatever happens I want you, love."

"Stay by my side. Please. Jangan tinggalkan saya atas apa sebab sekalipun. Don't leave me because I need you. Pleasee."

Matteo terkelu. Air matanya mengalir perlahan. Dia tidak menyangka kata kata Evelynn.

"I can't leave you, baby. I tried to forget you, I tried to forgot you but I couldn't. I didn't want to.. hurt you. But I'm selfish. I wanted you all for.. myself."

Evelynn memeluk Matteo erat.

"Cinta.. jangan sembunyikan apa apa dari saya. I want to know you. I want you. I want to have you all for myself too. Jangan buat saya tahu apa apa tentang awak dari orang lain. Pleasee."

"I'm sorry, baby. Saya janji, lepas ni, saya takkan sembunyikan apa apa dari awak lagi. Demi Allah saya cintakan awak lebih dari segalanya."

"Saya tak berani tinggalkan awak kerana cinta ni terlalu mendalam untuk awak. Im obsessed with you because you were the only person, smiled at me while everyone laughed at me."

"Saya kehilangan ibu saya. Tapi awak ada dengan saya walau awak tak kenal saya."

Evelynn terkelu.

"Haq? That kid.. was you? He said his name was Haq. You're Matteo Haq. So you're Haq. My tiny Haq? Allahu.. so you were in love with me since then?"

Entah kenapa Evelynn sangat terkejut hingga air matanya mengalir perlahan di pipi. Dia teringat keadaan Haq ketika kecil.

Dia sedang menangis di tepi kolam ikan sekolah. Evelynn mendekatinya. Evelynn berkata,

"Saya tahu awak sedih. Saya tahu awak terluka tapi.. awak kena ingat. Saya ada dengan awak. Haq, ibu awak dah meninggal tapi saya ada di sisi awak. Saya akan bawakan makanan untuk awak setiap pagi. Saya akan buat awak happy macam ibu awak selalu buat depan pagar tu. I saw her that day. I'll make you smile."

Kata kata Evelynn masih segar dalam ingatan Matteo hingga ke saat ini.

Matteo | Continues