Fight for You | JJK

15

It takes you a few days to recover from what happened, from the way Jungkook looked and the way he looked at you. It was the first time you were so close to him - sober, at least - and you felt comforted and safe, not just from whatever danger is out there but even from your own thoughts.

He made you feel something. You felt that you made him feel something. It's this thought that plagues your mind for the rest of the week as you go to work, attend your meetings, and have your social dinners, all while having Jungkook near you, doing what he's always done.

It becomes harder to keep what you feel inside the more you think about that night and how it felt being close to him. Every day for the next week, you find yourself thinking about him more than usual, wondering if he's eaten and if he got some rest.

You search for him in the restaurant and hope that he's next to you instead. You look at him from the backseat of the car and wish he's next to you, comforting you as another day ends, telling you that whatever worries you have will pass.

You want so badly to just hold his hand and kiss him, feel him in ways that you know will leave you satisfied. It's why you make the decision to swallow your pride and tell him.

[To: Jeon 🤖] I'll just be home tomorrow but come over around 6. I need help with something.

**

Jungkook has spent a variety of Saturdays detailing you as you go shopping, get pampered, go on events, or be with your best friends. It's rare that he's not with you during the day, but you texted him last night after you'd gone home from a movie premiere that you only need him to go to your place in the evening.

Of all days, he wishes he was detailing you instead. That way, he wouldn't have lazed in bed in the afternoon after a full-morning workout, looked through his social media that he only ever uses to check out his clients' social circle, and seen Soo-ah's post with another man on a boat trip in Busan.

Busy at work, states the photo caption, which clearly has a double meaning, based on how wide her smile is and the way the man has his arm around her waist.

She looks happy and it's the look she used to have on as a teenager with Jungkook when they'd bike through alleyways and explore rundown buildings back home and imagined a future life where they had the money to build a life together. She talked about a house by the ocean with a nice kitchen and a large yard and a car big enough for their big family.

Jungkook promised Soo-ah all these things, a promise he's been working on for the past 10 years ever since he left Busan. It's why he works as hard as he does, taking his job seriously and making sure he performs as instructed - following rules, being meticulous, ensuring his clients are safe and protected always, with clear boundaries set.

Everything's all about self-preservation for Jungkook because he wants to fulfill that promise because when he thinks about it, there's not really much else to live for.

Soo-ah knows this, too, and that's why she holds onto Jungkook the way she does, because she knows that if there's anybody who will keep a promise of giving her a good life, it's him.

Be someone, Jungkook, she'd said on the day he left. You can't do that here. Be someone then come back to me. Until then, you can do whatever you want.

It was an unwritten agreement between them. Jungkook knows she's dated around, but she always assured it was never anything serious. I have needs, she'd said, and he understood that; he was okay with that. He did, too, and he found temporary ways to sate those needs, something she didn't mind as well.

But what she has with this man feels different. And it frustrates Jungkook because 10 years later, he still feels like he's not enough for her.

It's the uncertainty and feeling of defeat that feeds his frustration. It grows and he doesn't have time to hit the gym again to let off some steam, remembering that you asked him to go to your place at 6PM.