The Perfect Submissive

Chapter 5

Eric

She's back and look more beautiful than the day she left. I feel guilty every time I think about how much of a coward I was to have left not one but two men to come in between me and my family. Everything happened so fast and before I knew it, she was being claimed every which way. 

That isn't any excuse, but I hope that she can find it in her heart to forgive me for not being her protector. I was weak 

"What's the matter" Amanda wraps her soft, slender arms around my waist as I stand next to the door of Eli's room. I don't know if it's because he's been gone for so long, but I just can't seem to let him go too far from my sight now. I stood guard here as if someone would snatch him up in the middle of the night.

"Just thinking about things" I sigh out, I know it's pathetic to feel sorry for myself in this situation but seeing Jasmine brought back memories of us in this exact home. Living the life I've always dreamed about for us. Those memories I held onto. 

I dreamt she never met that man, and I never did business with the other. The dream I had of us being happy and growing our family bigger once we agreed Eli needed a brother/sister and of her walking down the aisle in whatever white dress she picked. Jasmine could make anything look anything look great. 

"Eric, are you listening" I looked down at the woman that stood before me she was kind. She held that worry look on her face for me as she always did when I spaced out. She was amazing woman and I thank her for being here when I needed someone the most. It was as if God knew my pain and sent one of his angels to care for me. 

"Amanda, I would lie and tell you everything is okay with me but it's not. I-I don't know what's right or wrong anymore. I don't know who I am without my family, and I need to tell you this because-"

A single finger was placed over my lips stopping my sentence. I wanted to tell her how I felt about seeing Jasmine today. I needed to let her know that I was no one. If anything was to ever happen, I would not be her savior. How could I when this is the life I'm bound to. 

"You have nothing to explain. I'm lucky to have met you Eric and whatever you're going through, we will figure it out together. I will not sit here and let you down yourself. Just as I will not let you stalk your son while he's asleep" She giggled. I knew this might look crazy I just couldn't find it in me to leave this door after he went off to bed. At first, I just wanted to check in on him but now I think I'm afraid to leave his side.

"All that matters is he's home now. We can figure this out along the way, and I WILL be here. Every step of the way love" She left no room for argument as she looked at me. The thing about Amanda that captured my attention was her drive. When she first pursued me, I wasn't looking for anyone. Perfectly content by myself but she never gave up and actually pursued me with so much love and care. 

It reminded me of Jasmine. No, she isn't Jasmine, and I would be a fool to compare two great women, but I could not deny the things she did sometimes reminded me of her. The adorable little things jasmine used to do whenever we were together. 

Fuck I'm even more worthless then I think. Here's someone I could see myself with in the long run and I can't get over my EX. 

"Thank you" Is I could say as she embraced me. She was warm and inviting and I needed that right now. My world looks as if it will only get better from here, but I can't allow myself to be too comfortable. The last time I did that my family was taken away. I dread the thought of being happy knowing it could be stripped from me at any moment and leaving me back in that empty place. 

Leading me away from my son's door. I was reluctant to leave my post. My anxiety was all over the place but Amanda and that drive that she has dragged me down the hall and into the room that was now 'ours' 

She pushed me gently until I was sitting at the edge of the new King-sized bed, she suggested me get three months into our relationship. I understood she didn't want to be reminded of my past with someone other than her, so I obliged her request to change some things around the house. 

I watched as she seductively stripped out of her dress that was unbelievably tight around her breast making them appear even more fuller than they already were. Once she stood with only her thong that barely covered anything, she made her way onto the floor where she kneeled in between my legs. She watched me as I watched her. 

She loved the attention. I've noticed that about her. Amanda wasn't shy about what she wanted, she made it her mission to be admired and desired. I loved the way she never made herself available to others. They could stare and make comments, but no one was dumb enough to ever touch her. She was loyal that way. Only the hands she allowed to touch her had that privilege to see her in all of her glory. 

"I need your undivided attention" She stood and placed her long and slender leg onto my shoulder. I admired the confidence she held in and outside of the bedroom. She oozed power anyone could see it. 

"You have it" I replied. My hands traced the inside of her thighs that were exposed to me. I could always get lost in her seduction. It both took my mind off of things and made me excited for the night ahead. 

The back of my head was slightly tugged by her small hands. She wanted my eyes on her. I capture her gaze and make sure to keep eye contact with her as my mouth moved its way to where I knew it was welcomed. She sucked in a breath awaiting my attack but before I could a ring sounded across the room. There on the night stand my phone lit up. Someone was calling me.

"Hang on" I placed her on the bed in my place as I got up to see who was calling this late

"Whoever it is tell them you're busy" She huffed and fell back onto the bed. I chuckled at her annoyance from the moment we were just having. After this I will please her in all the ways she liked. She deserved it. 

  UNKNOWN CALLER

An unknown number? Who is this?

"Hello?" I speak curiously. 

"Eric, I know its late and I know I have no right to call you but-" The voice choked out. 

Jasmine. 

She sounds like she has been crying. Why would she be crying? My nerves went all over the place. Has it happened once again where I've failed to protect her.

"What is it! Are you okay?" I search the room in a hurry to find my shoes and a jacket. 

"My dad. H-He didn't make it" 

I paused. Mr. Walker was no saint, but he was her father, I understood the love she had for him. 

"Where and when" I ask, I know she needs me, and I will be there. 

"Is it okay if I come over and sleep with Eli? I know you're in a relationship and I don't want to overstep but I just need to hold him Eric" 

"Of course," There was no questions about it. She's welcomed here anytime.

The line went dead, and I stood there frozen. How will Eli react to hearing his grandfather has passed? How will Jasmine get through this? 

"Who was it" I all but forgot the naked woman on my bed. She wasn't covered as she never liked to be anyway but right now wasn't the time. I searched the closet and handed her one of my shirts and some sweats. 

"Jasmine's coming over for the night"

"What?!"

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