Distant Dreams

Seoul Dreams 14

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Hyunjin woke up saying Felix's name and Jeongin looked at him. "Dream walk?" He asked and Hyunjin took a moment to gather himself. Jeongin handed him a bottle of water and he gulped it down before focusing on I.N and seeing the other man eyeing his shirt. He looked down and saw the wetness from Felix's tears. He touched the spot gently and nodded. "He is not handling the separation too well." Jeongin supplied.

"No." Hyunjin's voice was rough with emotion. "He was hiding it from us trying to make it easier for me."

"And he fell apart when we were gone." Jeongin said flatly.

"Yes." Hyunjin said softly. "He was sitting in my lab, sobbing." His voice shook a little.

Changbin appeared over the seat in front of them. "And we can see the tears he cried on your shirt. That's interesting." Chan appeared next to him.

"So even though to us you are just sleeping, what happens there is real and has real life evidence. That's fascinating."

Hyunjin just shrugged. He had figured getting Felix's phone number would have proven that. He wanted Felix here. He wanted Felix with them. Even if he couldn't hold or kiss him outside of a bedroom, he wanted him where he could see him and talk to him. Where that smile would brighten his day. "Any word on how his appearance with us is being taken?" He asked and Chan grinned.

"Yes! Fans who were at the show have been tweeting up a storm about it and there are several videos of him on stage with us flying around. Initial response was surprise and they loved him." Chan told him.

"And the company?" Hyunjin asked nervously.

Chan made the gesture he always made when he was shouldering the burden to not have to bother the rest of them with something. "I'm handling it, don't worry about it."

Hyunjin wanted to fight and share some of the burden but in all actuality, he was spent. His emotions at having to leave Felix had drained him. His eyes welled but he blinked the tears back. Jeongin squeezed his hand gently. He was so grateful to these guys, to this family. He knew that they always had his back but in a way that made it worse because he knew Felix was alone. He would have his family and a few friends but not the support that Hyunjin had. He sent a text to Felix saying I love you.

Felix woke with a sob. At least Hyunjin had been able to hold him some. He hated that he had been caught crying but the relief he felt at being able to be held by Hyunjin was wonderful. He wiped his eyes and headed out into the kitchen to get some juice. Will's door opened. "FELIX holy shit man! Why didn't you say anything?" He called out loudly and Felix flinched. Will dropped his voice immediately. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare you." His eyes roved his roommate and took in the swollen eyes and a rare look of compassion crossed his face.

"How'd you know?" Felix asked, his just woken voice even deeper than usual.

"Jill came over after the show and showed me video of you on stage. She said you should be a member the way you fit in with them and she said you wrote the song." Will said, pride in his voice. "It looked amazing. You did really good." He added. Felix gave him a weak smile. Will gave him an awkward look, obviously not knowing how to handle the softer side of Felix too well and headed back toward his bedroom. "Jill says that a cold washcloth helps her eyes when she has cried." He threw back over his shoulder trying to help without embarrassing him. Felix looked after him a bit bemused. He didn't know if he and Will would ever be close friends but they had started some semblance of friendship and Felix appreciated it.