his helpless lover

chapter 5

White blank walls, a vase of red bright roses next to the window, a little bit of light was coming into the room and hit the brunette eyes "w-where am I..." we said while opening his eyes just to see a small figure with ginger hair standing by the window, smoking "hey nurse he woke up!" Dazai could recognise that voice from everywhere, it was chuuya. His ex lover, his ex partner, why was he here? Is he the one that took him to the hospital? The nurse ran some test on Dazai with the doctor as chuuya just stand there looking out the window and exhaling smoke "we are done sir but you have to lay down and at some hours they are gonna come and ask you some questions" Dazai nobbed as the nurse left the room, chuuya didn't pay attention to dazai, he didn't even knew why he was still there he just wanted to make sure dazai was safe, it wasn't his mind telling that, it was his heart that was telling him to take care of dazai, he didn't even wanted to but yet he did "c-chuuya..?" Chuuya didn't even look at him "did you take me here?" Chuuya sighed "Yes I did osamu, now let me smoke in peace" dazai was so suprised he wanted to tear up, chuuya, his ex lover, the one that he left and blew his car, the one that risked his life because of him, the one that got hurt because of dazai countless times, he was taking care of him "h-how did you find me..?" Chuuya threw his cigarette "I was just going to buy some wine and I passed through the lake and found you half-dead, don't ask me why I didn't left you there i don't know myself" dazai tried to get up but he lost his balance because his vision has still blurry, chuuya saw him and immediately ran and grabbed him from his waist so that he wouldn't fall "Stay in bed you bastard youre still drugged" dazai chuckled "dont worry about me chuu" chuuya threw him on the bed and rolled his eyes "I don't" after some time chuuya light up a cigarette and exhaled some smoke in his mouth "you sure like smoking" "I smoke when I'm stressed or worried" dazai was caught off guard, was chuuya stressed because he was worried about him? Or about work? No he wouldn't be worried about him.. would he? "Why are you worried then? Probably because-" "None your business bandage freak" dazai sighed but suddenly he got a deja vu

5 years before

The same hospital room, the same color in the walls, the same flowers but dazai was sitting with chuuya looking outside the window as chuuya was hugging him from behind and held him from his waist "are you still feeling dizzy mackerel?" Dazai giggled "Kind of" chuuya light up a cigarette "give me a sip!" "No! I need it" "You sure like smoking" "I smoke when I'm stressed or worried" dazai was suprised at first but then smiled softly "why are you worried then? Probably because I almost died-" "None your business freak!" Chuuya said and rested his head on dazais shoulder.

Present

"What are you stating at you bandage freak?" Dazai snapped out of his thoughts and replied to chuuya "we have been here before chuuya" chuuya looked at him confused but ignored him "I'm leaving, good luck with the police" he said and as he was about to leave the room dazai started laughing "What are you laughing at you bastard?!" he smirked "We both know that you are gonna help me get out of the hospital because I can't walk myself and run away from the police" chuuya chuckled "And what makes you think I will help you?" Dazai tried and got up and leaned close to chuuya "because you love me" chuuya knew dazai was trying to manipulate him but he couldn't stop it. His brain was screaming 'stop no don't let him hurt you again' and his heart was saying 'help him you now you love him and you want him back' and chuuya of course wanted to follow his brain but he just couldn't. Love. That damn fucking feeling that makes you go crazy, the feeling that makes you do everything for that one person you love. "Fine." Dazai smiled "carry me out of here my prince" chuuya rolled his eyes and carried him with a bride style and jumped out the window "i hate you so much" dazai smiled and fell to chuuyas arms, he felt comfortable.

After some time they arrived to dazais house and chuuya threw him on his bed, as he was about to leave he felt a hand touching one of his fingers and holding it tight "dont leave.." dazai was still dizzy but he wanted chuuya to touch him, to hug him, ro hold him tight and to not leave him, just for one night. Only one night. "Let go of me you bastard I did what you asked for!" "Hold me." Chuuya looked at him in suprise "what." "Hold. Me."

Author notes:
Hey guys! How are you all doing? Thank you so much for all the comments, likes and views I really appreciate it you all make my day! I'm not doing so well with my mental health rn so I may update a lot in 1-2 days and then take 1-2 weeks to update so I'm sorry if this happens, thank you for reading! <3