You Saved Me!

~*Chapter 30:Harry *~

I watched Emma and Garrett laughing while enjoying the company of all their friends and family. I looked over at Louis who was talking to my mum and dad. Someone was going to slip soon about the baby. I really needed to talk to Louis soon. I almost died earlier when I'd made the comment about me getting bigger.

Ryder came running up to Louis , calling out Louis' name. Louis bent down and picked up the oh-so-happy Ryder . I smiled as I watched the two of them. I put my hand to my stomach and instantly felt like I couldn't breathe. When I leaned forward, I felt a hand rubbing my back. I knew in an instant that it was Ellie.

"Breathe, baby. Just breathe. "

"Jesus, Mary, and Joseph, I can't do this, Ellie! What if this baby has Fragile X? I'm not like my sister . I can't do it. I just can't!" Holy fook, I was having a melt-down.

Worried that Louis might see me freaking out, I looked over and noticed he was taking Ryder down to the barn. They must be going to look at the horses.

Niall reached over and placed his finger under my chin and turned my head towards him.

"Listen to me right now, Harry . You're going to be fine, and this baby is going to be fine. You aren't even sure if you're a carrier, so stop worrying yourself sick. But, sweets, ya have to tell Louis . You have to tell him tonight. No more excuses. You can't keep trying to do this on your own. Louis loves you more than life itself, and he's going to be so damn happy. Please, Haz, go talk to him. "

I felt the tears building up in my eyes, and I willed myself to stop them. I smiled at Niall , I leaned over and kissed him on the cheek.

"Have I told you today that I love you?" I asked, winking at him.

"No. No, you haven't bitch," he said winking back with a smile.

Laughing, we stood up and hugged. I held on to him just for a few seconds longer than needed. I would be lost without this man.

"Okay, I'm gonna go talk to him right now. I've been sitting here all day waiting for someone to accidentally slip and say something to him!"

Niall let out a laugh as I turned and made my way down to the barn.

As I rounded the corner, I could hear Louis and Ryder talking.

"Where's Harry's horse, Louis ?"

I stopped to listen, peeking into the barn. I was curious to see if Louis was going to remember to be specific this time.

"Well, buddy. . . she's over on our property. I have her out in a pasture right now. She's not the type of girl who likes to be held down in a stall for too long. She really loves to be free and run around with the sun on her. "

"Like Harry ! Harry likes the sun on his face, too, doesn't he, Louis ?" Ryder said Louis with a huge smile on his face.

God, how I love Ryder . His heart was pure, and his laughter was infectious. He was so special to us. There was something about him that just made people feel so loved when he smiled.

"Yeah, buddy, he does. Harry is just like Stargazer no one can hold him down. He's probably the most amazing man I've ever met. "

"Louis , you're an assmole! Harry is a boy, not a man !"

Oh shit! I couldn't help it when and I let out a small giggle. I had to laugh every time Ryder said assmole.

"Ryder , buddy, trust me uncle Harry is a man," Louis said, placing his hand on Ryder's head.

"I'm gonna give you a hug, buddy, okay?" he asked as Ryder smiled up at him. Louis gently pulled Ryder in for a hug.

I felt a single tear run down my face. Just then, my sister walked up next to me, putting her arm around me. Reaching up, I wiped away my tear, trying to get myself back together again.