11:11 \\ mgc [completed]

16:00

["and i wish you knew that i'll never forget you as long as i live." - i wish you would, taylor swift.]

You fell asleep too, under the same tree I had laid. I ran as far from you as I could, my feet taking me to the middle of nowhere. I pulled my phone out again, dialling my best friend's number.

She picked up.

"Hello," I said, my voice cracking as I tried to control my emotions.

"What's wrong?" She said. Maybe I was an open book after all.

"He broke up with me." I said, trying to keep my voice calm. It didn't help.

"Oh my god, why?" Her voice was flat, like she knew it would happen sooner or later. Maybe we were never meant for each other.

"I don't know."

"What did he say?"

"That it was him, not me."

"If a boy says that, it's definitely you." She sighed, and I could imagine her running her hands through her lilac hair. She had the same hair as you did.

"I know."

"I'm sorry."

"It's okay," I said.

"I have to go, I'll talk to you later."

"Bye."

She cut the line. She was never like this.

It was me.

++

I called you again. I needed to hear your voice. You didn't pick up.

I felt empty, I didn't know what to do. I tried using Netflix, but I couldn't enjoy movies without you.

I tried listening to music, but music was always your thing.

I tried to sleep, but without you by my side, it was impossible.

I tried to eat, but you were the only reason I ate anymore. You made me eat.

I tried to read, but I could never engross myself in a book like you did.

Everything I did anymore came back to you.

So I breathed. Inhaled, exhaled, inhaled, exhaled. I heard my breathing, the cycle going on.

What I didn't know that I breathed for you too; you were my reason for survival.

And then you were gone.