Wild Flower--BANGTAN

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Standing in front of the shattered broken mirror the young girl looked up at her reflection all coming out distorted as she stared into her bloodshot red eyes. It was pathetic for her, the way she looked the way her life was going, her parents, the people around her everyone and everything was pathetic.

She looked down at the palm of her hand which had dried blood stains. The pill bottle was lying on the sink marble right in front of her eyes. She could not think straight, her head was hurting and her breathing was uneven. She wanted to end this misery at once and for all.

With shaky hands, she grabbed the bottle pouring out all of it in her left palm. Half of it falls into the basin and the floor below. The lights in the shaggy bathroom blink. She looked up at her reflection once again.

Nona P.O.V

I cannot even recognize myself anymore. What has happened to me? Why did I let this happen to me after everything?

This whole week was a heavy toll on my mental state. She had to take some very important decisions. They determined her future and life, everything about her. Was I even in my right mind while making those decisions or was it just impulsiveness that made me take them?
Was I really myself when I thought that I was doing the right thing.

And here I am standing in a rusty bathroom in an underground den that clearly was I not allowed to enter. Looking at the pills a thought crossed my mind if I take them all at once, it ends everything. No more shit. Everything ends right then and there. No more anxiety attacks, no more pain, no more nightmares.

Bringing up the pills right close to my mouth I stopped.

Memories flashed across her mind as she remembered her mom walking down with her when she was five taking her to her dance class. She remembered how her brother would always give her half of his chicken nuggets and take the veggies from her plate during dinner, she remembered the boys and their way of treating her, Jungkook who would always tell her about his day, Jimin who never forgot to hug her at least once throughout the day, Taehyung who would make sure she's dressed up well in the cold weather and tie her hair in beautiful braids, Hoseok who never fails to make sure that her mood is not bad and she smiles, Namjoon who improves her Korean and help her write songs, Jin who would not go to sleep until he sees that she is safely at home. Yoongi-

Yoongi doesn't say much and throws sarcasm at her, but actions speak louder than words. Covering her with a blanket when she falls asleep on the floor, stacking her backpack with her favorite snacks the night before without anyone knowing, and leaving money in her jacket pockets sometimes so that she can eat something.

All of them took care of me like family, they really love me just like my mom and Nathan and so a thought crossed my mind.

Do I really need to do this and hurt them?

Conflicted with these thoughts Nona cried out in a loud sob. Life is so confusing and hard for her, she threw the pills in the basin in anger and started hitting the wall. Her knuckles hurt as she stopped and slumped on the floor. She cried and cried as all the pain came at her at once. Those scars she had reminded her of where she has come from and where she is now.

As she calmed down, Nona rubbed her eyes off the stray tears left and got up. She checked her pockets to see if she had anything on her. Feeling a piece of paper she took it out of her pocket. It was that form given to her by that tattoed guy she battled on the street. It was about that hip-hop championship. Staring at the paper for a few more moments she folded it nicely to keep it back in her pocket.

Nona knew where she had to go and what she has to do.

Back in the dorm most of them didn't sleep a wink, Jungkook cried to sleep in the early hours followed by Taehyung. The others stayed up not knowing what to do. After Nona left and the fight between Namjoon and Yoongi, everything just got blurred. Yoongi took off right after in a haste not waiting to hear anyone. Jin yelled at him to stop but he was gone by then.

"Namjoon," Jin said as he tugged at his arm "this is not the time for this. We have to go look for her. It's getting really late, it's not safe for her out there alone. You have to pull yourself together at least for her sake," he said in a calm voice.

Namjoon looked up at his Hyung with a defeated gaze "It's my fault Hyung"

"No Joon, it's not" Jin pulled him into a hug "It's nobody's fault" pulling out of the hug "we'll go look for her yea"

Namjoon nodded and all of them went out to look for her. They checked everywhere they could think of where she could be at this time. For hours they looked but didn't see any sign of her. Even Yoongi was gone and no one had any idea where he went off to. With failed results, all of them got back to their dorm. No one said a word to each other.

In the early hours of the morning, the main door opened and Yoongi slumped inside. He was all disheveled with red eyes. Namjoon walked up to him and pulled him into a hug. Yoongi didn't react at first but then hugged him back holding tight as he tried not to cry.

Soon all of them left for the office filled with worry and guilt. Nona was missing and gone and no one knows where she went or how she was. What will they tell the people in the office when they ask about her? They didn't know what to do, whether to go to a police station or call her brother to tell him that they made his sister run out of the house crying.

With a lot of reluctance, all of them stepped into the bighit building. They knew they had to do something, so instead of going to the practice room like always, they made their way in another direction.

All of them stopped in front of a door on which the sign read "Bang-Si-Hyuk". Not knowing what else to do, they gathered all their courage to come to their boss and ask him for help. Namjoon hesitantly knocked on the door, after getting a comforting shoulder grasp from Jin and an encouraging nod from Yoongi.

"One moment please," Pd-nim said from behind the door. After a few minutes, he again called out "come in"

Namjoon pushed the door open ready to face whatever would happen from then on, but he was not prepared to see what really did lie in front of him. None of them were expecting that, after everything.

Nona was sitting there in a chair in front of Pd-nim looking straight towards the door. Her face was pale and her cheeks red. The brown eyes that would twinkle everytime she sees the boys were blank. Her eyes were swollen showing she cried the whole night and her hair, that long beautiful locks that would fall down her shoulders was gone. It was chopped off in a ragged manner up to her shoulders.

The boys couldn't believe their eyes when they saw her sitting there. She didn't react at all when she saw them. All she did was stare at them, with no emotions.

"Boys" Pd-nim spoke out from his chair "What brings you here, Naeun and I were just finishing up our conversation"

Nona looking away from them turned back to look at Bang "I'll take my leave then"

She stood up from her chair and bowed. Turning around she walked near to the door where the boys were still standing shaken and immovable. She again bowed at them and then left without another word.