Wild Flower--BANGTAN

.___●•♡-𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐭#10

"ENOUGH" she yelled out as she stood up. Her eyes are red with the tears that she was trying to hold back. She wiped them with the back of her sleeves as she glared down at the man standing in front of her.

"You fucking don't know half the shit I have gone through" she spat in a venomous voice as she stepped closer, pointing out a finger at the boy "you were the one who used to judge me for everything, and now you are telling me that I can talk to you about anything. Bullshit"

She scoffed sarcastically as she turned around, tearing away her hateful eyes from the soft gazes of the boys. Yoongi was one of the first guys among them with whom she shared bout her. He had figured out a little bout what her life was before bighit.

Digging her fingernails made wounds on her palm turning the skin around it red and raw.

"I had to say goodbye to the people who loved me and took care of me at an age when other kids were living their fucking  perfect lives. The so called freaking perfect childhood is what they say, I didn't had that"

"I had survived in this goddamn city on my own, and there was no one. So don't give me the bullshit telling me that you can help me because I don't need it. I have lived alone this long, i can survive the rest on my own"

Nona turned around and stomped towards Yoongi whose anger was now replaced by emotion she couldn't quite figure out. He stood there blankly staring at her.

"Nobody stays. You'll make me rely on you, make fake promises, and then what just like everyone you all will abandon me too"

By now the wounds on her hands had started bleeding.

"I don't want to be abandoned again. It's fucking painful, so painful that it makes you feel as if you are dying from inside."

Her words were of anger but the pain in them was evident. It was painful enough for the people around her to feel it in their heart.

" I was sent to this freaking country saying it would be good start for me after what happened back in Australia but look at me. I grew up so lonely, so fucking lonely because nobody wanted to befriend the new girl. The new girl who was mute for a whole because she didn't understand the people around her"

"I'm all alone in this place full of unfamiliar people with nobody beside me. It fucking hurts so much and you know what none of you know what it feels like so spare me the shit where you tell me that you understand where I come from because honestly none of you" she said while looking around at the boys "have even the slightest idea of what I have gone through"

Her anger now toned down Nona went blank. She felt empty, exhausted with all the sudden emotions she was feeling. She slumped down on the floor with no energy left in her. She could hear sniffles coming from the corner of the room, but she didn't have the energy to look up. The bottle of pills came into her view.

Slightly scoffing she grabbed the bottle. The bottle now red with her blood, tightly grasped in her right hand, she looked up straight at Namjoon who was sitting right in front.

"You wanna know what these pills are for right?" She asked shaking the bottle.

"They said I'm losing my head. That I am going sick and so I need these to be normal" She threw the bottle on the table the pills scattered out of it creating a mess.

"You guys don't know how it is out there for people like me. Everyday i tried to rise out of the dark clutches of sadness, I'll get trampled down. The people who made promises to make me better turned into recurring nightmares. Everyday was hell and all I wanted was to be okay but they turned me crazy " 

"I'm sick and crazy" she whispered her eyes lowering down while a tear rolled down her rosy cheeks.

"I'm sick and damaged just like they said" she kept repeating in whispers as the horrible memories of her past knocked on her mind.