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"It's because when I see you, I could see a part of myself in you. You remind me of my younger self. You might fool the others with your act but not me, I know that there's something that is bothering you. You are trying to mask your actual feelings for some reason and I can see that. Those eyes of yours speak everything kid"
"How would you know that?" Nona asked with disbelief. She was getting agitated thinking how some random guy can say this bout her when he doesn't even know her properly.
"You are talking to someone who has gone through that phase Nona, I know how it feels. I was like you at some point, young naive innocent about the dark world. Got crushed to the extent where I almost lost myself. It was horrible because I had no one to talk to about it, keeping it inside me I broke myself. That's why I asking you now to start trusting people and tell them if some things are bothering you. Not everyone in this world is going to hurt you."
I was moved by his words. When he spoke with such sincerity, I got heavy-hearted. He knew what to say, and he said exactly what I needed to hear at that moment. It was as if God has sent me a guardian angel, one who could help me out of this dark place in my mind.
Suddenly I felt like blurting out everything in front of him. I'm not the kind of person who speaks about their life but sitting beside him at that moment and after hearing him I got overloaded with emotions. I had so much to say and having him at that time I knew I need to get some things off my mind.
"When I came here at the age of eight, I was totally new to my surroundings. My Korean was weak so I couldn't make any friends because of my lack of conversation skills. I didn't try putting in any effort tho to make any friends, I just wanted to be alone. My family was not really that close to me. I barely knew them and it was the first time I have met them after my one-year birthday. They would all go about with their own way of living and it was hard for me to get used to it because I used to live in a totally different environment. I faced so many problems with everything." my mind was filled with past images. How I used to go through so much that it made me feel like I deserve all of it "Everything used to be complicated for me, I got confused with the seasons, for me, Christmas was always during summer where me and brother would eat ice cream like idiots until our stomach hurts but here it's like the opposite. It frustrated me completely. I was confused, lost, and desperate to get back to my old life."
I sniffed as my nose got blocked and swallowed down the incoming tears. My mind was getting messed up, with all the things happening around me. I didn't like crying, it made me feel weak. I wanted to be strong, if not in real but to show people that they can't just step on me and walk away. It was hard to pretend every damn time, it was tiring me.
"So I started dancing and rapping on the streets since it helped me get my mind off things. It made me feel at peace with all the other shit going around me. Life was fucked but dancing made it bearable for me"
