I don't want to be loved

Chapter 21: I Want To Live A Happy Life

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Flashback continued...

Lalisa turned around and ran down the hall. So, they'd been meeting for sexual encounters in private eyes. Of course. She should have known. He had never once sought her body for a long while as he had found another to resolve his crazed desires.

"Ah..."

When she walked downstairs, her mind was wrought with pain and bouts of headaches and dizziness. Her body reeled slightly forward, strength drained away from her. Maybe it was stress, maybe it was shock, but whatever the case, she did want to lose consciousness at a time like this, but she did and everything turned black.

By the time she regained clarity, the life in her belly disappeared - gone. She could not believe it. In sorrow, she caressed her belly. She could not shed tears. She should, but there was not a drop of ounce available.

The maids, tearing up, attempted to console her, saying she could have another child again.

But Lalisa knew deep down that it'd never happen. She had lost the new life in her belly because of mere carelessness.

Days had passed since the incident and Igor had yet to visit her. When she asked, the servants stared at one another and kept their mouths shut.

And that was when she realized her fate.

She was abandoned after losing his child. She no longer had use for him.

Not long after, soldiers arrived in her palace and dragged her to prison and was found guilty of sin for disobedience to the King, selling the country's secrets to foreigners, and consigning with Crichton.

Lalisa did not have an ounce of will to laugh at the absurdity of the matter.

Perhaps he could not stomach the true reasoning for choosing to abandon her. It would not paint a good picture to the people of Arundell, after all.

And so he looked for a good reasons to lock her away and finally, turn his back. And besides, what better timing too. Vincent reibius's coronation was happening at the same time.

And then there was the falsely damning evidence found that she had an affair with Crichton. Of course, she knew it was far from the truth, but the masses believed the lies they were fed with.

Above all, it was a golden opportunity for the King. He'd be able to usurp the power of the late Queen and capture Chricton's power.

Jungkook could finally have all the power he wanted in return for her downfall.

Roseanne came to her prison not long after. That she was able to enter and leave freely proved her elevated status and position.

"Poor dearest sister."

Roseanne mocked her.

"You don't want others to watch your death and decapitation, do you? Give in. This is the last option to protect my sister's honor."

Lalisa was willing to take the poison Roseanne gave her. There was no trace of regret in her decision. All she wanted... was to end her dreaded life quickly. But, in the end, she returned to the past.

She did not know why this happened, but one thing was clear, she would never make the mistakes her former self made. And she would never allow her heart to open up so carelessly.

(A/N: We will get our revenge for our fl)

Flashback end...

"Jeffrey, I'm going to leave this place, and I will live a life under my own terms. I won't allow anyone to control me."

Lalisa had stopped thinking for herself since the death of her mother. Her small world shrank since then and ever since, she continued to seek love from others who did not reciprocate and that continued on in her adulthood. She anxiously sought the love from her father as a child and sought the love from her lover as a woman.

But she won't live like that anymore.

"I want to live a happy life, Jeffrey."

And she would live it to the fullest.

Looking at her determination, Jeffrey nodded and smiled softly.

"Yes, Lady Lalisa. Live freely and happily at your own terms. I'm sure the late Countess would want that too."

Two days later, Lalisa and Mary headed to the port. As their estate was close to the ocean, the journey lasted approximately two hours.

The boat Mary booked was a regular ferry traveling to Arundell, Chrichton, and back.

The white and blue boat floated on the sea was like a picture in a clear, sunny weather.

This was the start of her happiness.

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