"You Can't Just Enter My Life Again And Judge Me."
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And I Ain't To Proud To Tell You That I Cry Sometimes, I Cry Sometimes About It.
And Boy That Shit Hurt, If This World Was Perfect, Then We Could Make It Work, But I Doubt It.
I've Never Really Heard My Mother Curse And Yell That Way, But That Let Me Know She Meant Business.
I Agreed To Meet My Father For Lunch, But Only For My Mother. If He Said One Little Thing Out Of Order I Was Leaving.
Sometimes, It's Hard To Believe My Father Left My Mother For Someone Else, Because They Were So In Love.
I Held A Grudge Against Him Because He Had Left My Mother And I But In Reality, It Wasn't My Situation.
The Hospital Room Was Silent, It Was My Mother Who Spoke First. "Don't Hate Him."
"Him?" I Asked, Playing Dumb. I Knew Exactly Who She Was Speaking Of.
"Your Father Bonnie," She Said Frustrated Knowing What I Was Doing. "Nothing Was His Fault."
I Had No Right To Scream, But I Did Anyway, "How Was It Not His Fault When He Left Us With Nothing, Then Never Came Back To Even Check On Me. His Own Daughter!"
She Sat Up A Little, "He Tried Bonnie. He Tried To Give Me Money For Help But I Turned Him Down. He Tried To Take You Every Weekend But I Wouldn't Let Him. It Was All My Fault."
For The First Time In Forever, My Mother Cried. I Got In The Bed With Her And Held Her Close.
I Wasn't Gonna Blame My Mother, Because At The End Of The Day, She Only Wanted What Was Best For Me.
Maybe At That Time She Felt Like My Father Wasn't What I Needed.
I Hate The Fact That He Wasn't There, But It's In The Past And I Still Had Time To Make A Future With Him.
I Can't Think About Myself At This Point, I Have To Think About My Mother.
"They're Wanting To Send You Away." I Told My Mother Once She Had Calmed Down A Bit.
She Turned And Looked At Me Curiously, "Send Me Away?"
I Nodded My Head, "Yeah, Far Away, To Another Treatment Hospital. They Say The Other Hospital Has Better Treatment."
"Then I'm Willing To Go." She Said, As If She Had Thought Of It Herself.
"Your Not Understanding," I Spit Out, "If They Move You Then I Can't Come Visit You Everyday."
"Bonnie I Don't Think Your Understanding Either. If They Move Me Away, I'll Get Better Treatment." Mother Pushed Out, "Sign The Papers. My Final Saying."
I Sighed So Loudly Before Raising From The Bed, Checking My Watch. "I Have To Go, I Love You."
I Kissed Her Cheek As She Hugged Me, "I Love You Too Bonnie."
I Left Her Laying There And Headed To The Front Desk, Looking For The Nurse With The Papers.
The Receptionist Smiled At Me, "Here To See Dana? I'll Sign You In, Go Ahead."
I Laughed A Little, Shaking My Head. "Not Quite, I'm Looking For--
"Nurse Lauren," She Cut Me Off, Handing Me The Same Papers, "Yeah She Thought You Might Come By Looking For These."
I Took The Papers In My Hand, Glancing At Them For A Second, "Yeah. Thanks. Nice Seeing You."
I Didn't Give Her A Chance To Reply Before I Exited The Building, Looking For My Car.
As I Entered The House A Bit Late, My Parents Sat On The Sofa Waiting For.
"What's Going On?" I Asked, Setting My Father's Keys Down Near The Door.
They Both Looked At Each Other Before My Father Spoke, "Please Take A Seat."
I Hesitated Before I Did As They Said, "Is Everything Okay?"
My Mom Took A Deep Breath Before Speaking, "We Think That You And Kameron Should Take A Break."
They Wanted Me To Take A Break From Kameron. Absolutely Not.
"Why?" I Questioned, Highly Upset. "Where Is This Even Coming From?"
"We Just Think He's Slowing You Down, You Could Be Doing So Much Right Now." My Dad Added.
"This Is Bogus!" I Yelled, "Everything That I Can Be Doing, I'm Doing It. Kameron Isn't Doing Anything Wrong And You Know It. I'm Not Taking A Break From My Bestfriend And That's Final."
My Parents Looked Shocked, "Your Going To Do What We Tell You!"
I Looked At Them Both Before Standing From The Sofa, Walking Straight Out The Door.
I Sat In Red Lobster Starring Down At The Papers Given To Me From Nurse Lauren.
I Looked Up To See That Familiar Face And I Couldn't Help But Smile.
"Bonnie." He Said In That Kind Of Laugh Talk And Held His Arms Open.
I Stood Up And Embraced Him In A Tight Hug. "Hey Dad."
We Took A Seat In The Booth Across From Each Other. "You've Grown So Much. Still So Beautiful."
"Thanks." I Said A Bit Dry, Smiling At My Father.
His Face Got A Bit Serious, "I Know Where You Work Bonnie, And I Don't Like It. Your So Much Better Than That."
"You Can't Just Enter My Life Again And Judge Me." I Spoke, Making Sure He Understood.
His Expression Changed Instantly, From Bad To Good.
"Your Completely Right," He Agreed, Then His Eyes Focused On The Papers. "What's That?"
I Looked Down At Them Myself, "Oh Something From The Cancer Treatment Hospital."
"What's It About?" He Questioned Sounding Like He Cared.
I Covered It Up With My Arms, "Why?"
He Sighed, "Bonnie I Still Care About Your Mother And You, Both Of You Are Still Two Important Women In My Life, I Think I Deserve To Know."
He Was Right. I Hated It, But He Was. He Did Have A Right To Know.
I Slid The Papers Over To Him As He Began Reading Them Over, "They're Trying To Move Her Away From Me. 300 Thousand Miles Away From Me."
As He Looked Up, Sadness Crossed His Face. "Go With Her."
"I Can't," I Told Him, "I Would Need To Buy A House Down There And Then Pay For Her Treatments And To Do All That I Have To Work. I Can't--"
He Cut Me Off By Grabbing My Forearms, "No, Bonnie. Look Where They're Moving Her To. I Have A Spacious House There That You Can Move In. All You Have To Worry About Is The Utilities."
Nice That He Offered, But There Was Still Alot More Than That To The Situation, "I Still Have To Pay For Her Treatments And My Work Place Is Down Here, Thanks For Offering But--"
"I Can Handle Her Treatments," He Said, Once Again Cutting Me Off. "All You Have To Worry About Is Finding A Job Down That Way. Just Think About It Bonnie."
Just Think About It Bonnie.
Just Think About It Bonnie.
I Thought About That All Night.
