Fyozai Oneshot Book

6

Fyodor and Dazai.

Two sides of the same coin.

Two people on different sides of this conflict.

What would happen if one falls in love with the other?

What if the feelings aren't reciprocated?

What if the other is already with someone else?

Feelings are complicated, one can fall in love after knowing the other for a long time, however, those feelings aren't always given up back. Even if one is in love, the other might not be, love and hate, two emotions that might be the opposite of each other but can appear together in many occasions.

If one's feelings aren't reciprocated, what can they do?

Continue to fall in love with them or leave the feelings and move on?

But what if they try to move on and doesn't succeed?

What would happen then?

It's an interesting question, some would commit suicide just because their love isn't reciprocated. However, sometimes, people are just so lucky that their love becomes reciprocated.

Dazai isn't one of them, unfortunately.

Isn't life just always so unfair?

Why can't he just not fall in love?

Obsession is just another side of love, people can fall onto the healthier side but they can also fall onto the more unhealthy one, and he just so happens to fall onto the side of obsession.

Love and Hate, they are opposites but also so similar. Obsession appears in both of them.

Possession and Obsession, they usually appear together in love.

Dying and Living, which one is really worse? No one knows what happens after death, so just assuming that nothing happens and we just dies, isn't death so much better than being alive? While you're living, you have to go through all sorts of difficulties, and the sufferings of loving someone. Not everyone is has such a lucky fate that their feelings are reciprocated so death is much better, isn't it?

He knows that his feelings just can't be reciprocated by him, so why bother clinging onto them? Why can't he just let them go? This shouldn't be so difficult after all, right?

Jealousy seems to be unavoidable after you've falling so deep into this so called 'love'. Is love really just obsession or not? There are so many questions that he needs an answer to. Does love really brings happiness? So much so that even the Demon himself has fallen into it?

He needs answers, but it seems that it is not the time for them yet. The game has now begun, Dostoevsky has to die. And this foolish feeling they call love will not go in the way of that, he will not let it do so.

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How are you guys feeling?

This is a shorter chapter so I apologise if it's not satisfactory. I haven't really written any angst and I just got a new idea and I needed to write it so yeah. Here's some one-sided Fyozai for you guys, Fyodor being the one in love with Dazai just didn't make that much sense so Dazai's the one in love. At first I was like, should there be soukoku? But I decided against it so yeah.

First time writing angst, might be a bit cringe, I included my thoughts and questions about love cause I thought that Dazai might have asked himself or someone these questions at some point.

Anyways, have a nice day/rest of the day. Bye.