Fyozai Oneshot Book

9

"Fedya?" Dazai asked once he saw him sitting near the edge of the rooftop, "Didn't know you wanted to commit a double suicide with me."

Fyodor turns to face him, Dazai laughed once he saw the deadpan on his face. He sat down next to him and smiled, "Why are you here anyways? Didn't think that you would be here before me." Fyodor chuckled at him, reminiscing, "Remember when we first met?"

"How could I forget that! I caught you trying to steal information from the Port Mafia, didn't I?" "You did, and then you asked me to find something to blackmail Mori with." "I still want to thank you for that, his face was hilarious when I threatened him." "No problem..."

"You good? Fedya?" "I'm...alright...it's just...I'm just reminded of my father when I met him." "Your father?" "Do I have to tell you my past?" "Of course you do." "Alright fine."

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Fyodor laughs as he walk around the garden with his mother. His mother was holding his hand as she follows him around the garden, watching him look amazed at all of the plants while she explained their symbols and uses to him. His father smiles as he watches them from afar, his family was happy and that was all he had wanted. 

Until something happened.

Fyodor's mother had suddenly fell while bleeding severely and Fyodor's father ran to them, holding his mother and checking her pulse. Fyodor was crying and screaming and was having trouble breathing, which causes all of their workers to run over. Fyodor's father called an ambulance immediately as they tried to save her.

As soon as the ambulance came, his mother was transported to the hospital immediately. The doctors tried saving her but nothing worked, her pulse had stop and they couldn't do anything to save her from the cold hands of death.

When he and his father got back home, Fyodor was told to go to his room and wait while his father sort some things out. He waited for hours and hours but there was still nothing from his father, so he opened his door and stepped outside. But when he tried talking to his father, he yelled at him, blaming him for the death of his beloved wife.

He kept yelling at Fyodor while beating him up, but after realising what he had done during his anger, he quickly picked up his bloody son and rushed him to the hospital. Fyodor was soon hospitalised for a while until they finally released him. From then on, his father began to drink more and more, and Fyodor was abused and neglected by his father, as well as feared by the workers in his home. 

Soon enough, he developed anemia from the abuse and was extremely malnourished. 

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As soon as he was old enough, Fyodor bought a house far away from his old house, desperately trying to avoid his father. He wanted to start a new life, a life where no one knew who he was. But it wasn't enough for him.

There had always been a feeling of emptiness, of something missing from his life ever since his mother's death. He had been seeking it out, trying everyway possible that doesn't include romantic love, but nothing had worked out. 

He didn't want to fall in love with anyone, he wanted to avoid it, as he doesn't want his ability to kill his love one. But after nothing worked out for him, he thought that his emptiness was because of his ability since it was the thing that had killed his mother. So he set out to find a way to kill all ability users including himself, it soon became a goal that he felt like he needed to complete.

But as soon as he met Dazai, that hole felt like it was filled up, like what was missing from his life was genuine love and affection. He hadn't realised that as soon as his mother passed, there was nothing called 'love' and 'affection' in his life anymore.

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After Fyodor finished his story, he felt relieved, like a large boulder was lifted up from his shoulders. Dazai, who was still staring at him, smiled as he reaches out for his hand. Fyodor was startled and subconsciously moved away from him until he realised what Dazai did, so he just let him hold his hand.

Dazai held his hand up to his face and kissed it gently, before hugging him. Fyodor didn't know why but he cried, his tears made Dazai's shoulder wet but neither of them cared about it. All they cared about was their own happiness together.