STURNIOLO TRIPLETS-one shots

Self Harm pt.2- Matt

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This is a request from ChrissyOwenRose Ty!!

⚠️this part also contains self harm and deep subjects pls don't read if that will trigger u. Again, I'm always here if u need to talk loves <33⚠️

Tw: sh, swearing, pet names, blood, cutting

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        " Where's Matt?" Chris asked from where he was lying on the couch. It was around midnight and the middle triplet hadn't been seen since dinner time.
    " I dunno." Nick shrugged, scrolling through his phone aimlessly. " Probably his bedroom." He wasn't super worried until Chris had mentioned it, but now a trickle of worry flooded his heart.
    " He's probably fine, right?" He didn't sound too sure. Chris sat up, slipping his phone away.
    " Let's check on him." Nick decided, making his way to the stairs. Over the past couple of months Matt had been doing really well with stopping his self harm, but Nick and Chris were still always on high alert. They didn't want a repeat of the horrible damage it had caused their brother.
    The pair stomped up the stairs, not really expecting to find anything too interesting. Still, when they reached the top of the stairs the sight of Matt's closed door caused a shiver of panic.
    " Matt?" Nick called through the door, rapping lightly with his knuckle.
    There was no reply. The only sound coming from inside was heavy breathing.
    " Can we come in? Are you ok?"
    " No! Uh- don't come in- I'm fine-" His voice sounded panicked, but it was clear Matt was trying to hide it.
    Chris and Nick shared a look of dismay. While they didn't want to break Matt's privacy, a horrible sinking in their hearts told them what they would see behind the door.
    Chris turned the door handle slightly and pushed it open.
    Matt was sitting on the bed, carving deep lines into his skin with a blade. Tears were rushing down his face.
    " Matt!" Chris cried, taking in the scene and running over to sit next to him. " It's ok, put it down." He soothed gently.
    Matt shook his head, trembling from head to toe. He was breathing quickly, eyes wild.
    " Matt, babe." Nick moved closer, sensing the delicate state his brother was in. " What's going on?"
    Matt continued to sob, pressing the blade into his skin again. He didn't even seem to have heard Nick.
    " Can you answer me, please?"
    Matt pressed further into his arm in response.
    Chris eyed him, reaching out to try to take the blade. Matt jerked his arm away to stop him from getting it.
    " Stop. Please. I need it. I-I can't handle t-this. P-please-"
    Nick firmly grabbed his brother's arms, holding them down, allowing Chris to reach to take the blade away.
    " No! Please! Please, Nick- Chris-" Matt cried hysterically, pulling roughly against Nick's grip. " Please-"
    " You need to calm down, ok Matty?" Chris soothed, taking one of Matt's hands from Nick and pressing it to his own chest. " Can you feel my heartbeat?"
    Matt nodded tearfully, exhaling rapidly.
    " Ok." Chris smiled calmly. " Good. That's good. Breath with me, ok?" He inhaled slowly, and let it out a couple seconds later. " Box breathing, alright?"
    Nick ran his hand gently up and down Matt's back, trying to calm down the panicking boy.
    " You're ok. You're ok..." He continued on for a while, knowing that people talking helped bring Matt down from a panic attack.
    A couple minutes later, Matt's breathing seemed to return to normal. His face was red and blotchy from crying, eyes swollen. His arm bled freely until Nick pulled a bunch of tissues out and pressed them to the wound.
    After a couple moments of silence, Chris piped up.
    " What's going on, Matt?"
    He sighed. " I-I just saw some comments on the new video. Triggered me." His voice cracked a little in the middle. " I'm- I'm sorry."
    " Don't say that." Chris whispered, leaning in to embrace his brother. " It's ok."
    " I'm so sorry, Matt." Nick said, pulling out his phone. " I didn't even see them. I'm deleting them right now."
    " I'm such a failure." Matt whimpered into Chris's shoulder, tears filling his eyes again.
    " Shh, that's not true. Progress is never linear. You're so strong."
    Nick joined the hug, knowing that they'd be there for Matt through all the ups and downs.

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