[RE-WRITING] To love someone | hyunlix

Don't

Hyunjin ate his cereal silently. He had a lot on his mind from last night. He was still very confused, he wasn't gay, he loved Yujin, so why did he feel different?

"Honey you look so confused." His mom spoke.

"Yeah I've been thinking the same thing." His dad added.

Hyunjin didn't reply to his parents. He kept his eye on his cereal, staring at it while we was deep in thought.

His dad sighed and set his mug down. He walked over and sat next to Hyunjin. "What's on your mind, bud?" He put a hand on his back.

Hyunjin sighed. "I don't know." He held his face in his hands. "I feel so different."

"Like how?" His mom leaned in on the counter.

He sighed. "Your promise me you won't judge?"

"We do." They said in sync.

"Okay." He looked at both of them. "Last night I looked up if I was gay or not."

"Woah." His dad raised his brows.

His wife slapped his shoulder. "What made you do that?"

He sighed. "I dont know. I mean I have Yujin my girlfriend. Although I can't stop thinking about HWAT happened at the party.."

"Wait what happened at the party?" His dad asked.

"We..." he trailed off. "We kinda.. kissed."

"Holy shit." His mom exclaimed.

"You owe me ten bucks." He muttered to his wife.

"But I don't know! I don't know. Everything was fine until that night and now i can't stop thinking about it and even my relationship feels off." He yelled out.

"Hyunjin..." his mom started. "Do you like Felix?"

He froze while his breath hitched. "No. No I'm not gay."

"Hyunjin." His dad said again.

"Okay maybe... I don't know. I told him I wasn't gay but ever since then I'm rethinking." He turned to his mom. "The thing is, i wasnt even drunk that night. Sure I had a few drinks, but I was fully conscious."

"Hyunjin there's no way you don't like him." His dad said.

"I think I do like him." He groaned. "I just needed a kiss to figure it out."

"So what now?" His mom asked.

"What the hell do you mean what now?" His dad exclaimed. "Now he confesses and they get together or something."

"It's not that easy dad." He said.

"First off all, break up with Yujin." She stated. "If you actually liked her, she would have been mentioned more in this conversation."

"Oh fuck." Hyunjin groaned. "You're right."

-

Hyunjin sat in the cafeteria, sitting across from Yujin.

She was going on about the project she had to do for math, and how she hated her group. Hyunjin didn't really pay attention, he was focused on something else.

He sighed, catching the girls attention. Yujin stopped and raised a brow. "What's wrong?"

"I dunno." He muttered.

He cleared his throat before turning to her and grabbing her hand.

"Do you feel.." he began, looking at her. "Different? Or something."

She sighed. She pulled her hand away from Hyunjin's. "Yeah. Kinda."

"Is it because of me?" He asked. "Or is there.."

"There's no one." She stated. "I just feel the different vibe between us."

"Yujin.. I think" he started.

She stopped him, knowing exactly what he was going to say. "Don't. I knew it was coming." She smiled, sadly.

"I'm so sorry." He explained.

"Don't be. I can't force you to like me." She laughed.

"I'm really sorry. I hope we can be friends?" He smiled a bit.

"No we can, it's okay. I knew it wasn't going to end like I wanted." She put out.

"But Hyunjin," she started. He looked up at her. "Don't do this to whoever is next."

His smiled faded at her words.

"If you don't feel it, don't do it. But if you do, then go for it. Please." She said.

She held his hand again. "I hope you find the one, And if you already did; then I hope it lasts." She gave a genuine smile, holding his hand.

"Thank you. I'm so sorry I did this to you." He felt a tear drop.

She sniffled. "You can't control it. You can't force feelings." She said.

She sighed before getting up and grabbing her things. She was getting ready to walk away until she looked at her boyfriend, ex-boyfriend, again.

"I wish you the best," she smiled.

He smiled back. "You too. Take care."

She nodded her head and walked away. Hyunjin watched as she left the cafeteria, going who knows where.

He sighed to himself.

"I really hope this feeling is real." He muttered to himself.